Life, Love, and the Hell in Between

Happy Holidays!!

2006-12-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

May God bless each and everyone of us. Have a great year-ender, and a greater year ahead!

I HATE PLDT!!

2006-10-20T19:32:00.000+08:00

I HATE PLDT SO MUCH!!!!! It's been more than a week since our DSL connection is down. I can't do my office projects and assigments at home because of that! And I have to go to office early so I can finish those things. Grrr!!! I hate them so much, I'm gonna ruin their reputation to every PLDT subscriber. Calling all PLDT subscribers!! Switch na kayo sa Globe o kaya sa Smart!! Bulok ang PLDT!! BULOK!!! What's worse is I can't play Ragnarok!! Boohoo.

Earlier, we claimed our DLSU Alumni card. And WTF, my card is sooooooooooo fugly. It's not metallic green. Just plain green. Ang skwater amf. The others' were metallic green, and mine was the only fugly green. I hate DLSUAA!!! Okay, maybe it's okay for now because I didn't really pay anything for that card... So I'm going to order another one and tell them I lost my first one. It only costs 150 bucks anyway... Grrrr.... Things aren't definitely going my way...

I'm hating a lot of things/people/group of people lately... Hmm... Must be that time of the year...

And yeah, I can't upload my graduation pictures because of stupid PLDT!!

And now I can't remember the things that happened the past week... Sobness.

Graduate!

2006-10-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!! I'm officially a college grad!!

I haven't uploaded the pictures because I can't install the digicam driver. Sadness. Maybe next week.

I'm in a computer shop right now, because stupid PLDT DSL has gone haywire again. Yahoo! Mail Beta is ultimately laggy, it sucks.

Anyway, so Saturday morning was our graduation. Woke up at 5AM, took a bath, got dressed, and left for PICC with mom and dad. Kuya drove us there. Unfortunately, none of us knew where PICC was. Wahaha! So we got lost, and got delayed by maybe 20 minutes. I got there, and met with friends. Waited for others, programme started, and something yucky happened midway the programme. But I'm kinda lazy blogging about it, so just read it anywhere else (from my fellow graduates' blogs).

It ended at around 12, and cam-whored a lot after! Haha! Unfortunately, others (read: ROSS GAZMIN!) left early, so I don't have a picture with them. I can't wait to upload them. Left after a gazillion hours of picture taking. Got home, slept.

Woke up at around 530PM. We were going to have a family and relatives dinner at Luk Foo. Unfortunately, not all my relatives were there. Good thing Lorette and Danica made it, or else I would've been bored to my ass. Harhar!

Then we (Lorette, Danica and I) went to Starbucks after, and met with Julius. Stayed there for a while, chatted, then went to Lorette's house. And we did this paper requirement for Julius. Thank gahd I didn't pursue a nursing career in UP Manila (it was my first choice during college applications). They were doing this psychosomatic tree. (That was intended. A cheap attempt at humor) All the while watching the first season of One Tree Hill. Hahaha! I could watch OTH episodes the whole day. We left Lorette's house at around 5AM, because Julius had a flight to Bora at around 7AM. Got home, then slept.

That's about it. Oh yeah. I almost cried because of Bro. Armin's speech. About truth. I swear. It was bullseye. It was as if the speech was made for me. And about my dilemma, if I should tell Six or not. Haha, grabe. He said something like, "the truth hurts," "it's like digging your own grave," and so much more, that really really tugged at my heart.

And yeyy!! I didn't cry on grad day!! Hehehe! Hmm.. What else, what else...

I guess that's about it. I'll just blog again if I remember something. Congrats to all graduates of batch 147! Fellow batchmates, congratulations! Happy job hunting! Hehehe!

S22!! Block reunion slash advanced Christmas party on December 2, Saturday! Mark your calendars!! Other details and plans to follow :)

High school friends!! Reunion on October 21! At Kareeza's house! Meeting place, Robinson's Manila, after lunch probably. Hang out for a while (Photohunt!!), then proceed to Kare's house at around 5 or 6PM! Text or leave a comment here if you can come or not.

Bye, Koj

2006-10-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

A good friend of mine passed away today. And I can't even remember the last time I saw her.

Karen Jane Molinyawe. She was popularly known as Kojen or Koj. She became my classmate only during the last year of our high school life. This is the part where I ate my words, and swallowed them whole. Before the school year started, we already heard how she behaves, and me and my friends didn't like what we heard. I instantly declared that I am going to make her life as hellish as possible, when we learned that she was going to be our classmate. This is the first time that I let the bitch in me get ahead of myself. I am never going to forgive myself for saying that. Never.

She didn't turn out to be so bad after all. We became friends. We even called each other "crush." Long story. We were seatmates during our physics class, we used to go to that mini store inside our school (I forgot how we called it) to buy Chocolait and snacks. We used to wash our faces together after CAT with our other friends. She was really a good person. Very sweet, caring and thoughtful. I can't believe that I misjudged her. She comprised 50% or more of the quotes and jokes in my phone, thanks to our being both subscribers to Sun Cellular.

Then only a few months ago, a never-heard-of (at least for me) disease hit her. I planned on many times to visit her, but I had no time. Gahd, I couldn't even make time for a friend, when she made all the time for me when I needed someone back in high school. Weeks passed, and she was still confined in the hospital. And I still didn't have time. I'm such a bad friend. Then she became okay, got out of the hospital, and still, I didn't have time to pay her a visit.

Earlier, while at work, Frytz asked me if I received a text from Mascian peeps. At first, I thought it was about the Alumni Reunion of MSHS. Then he said no. And that's when I had a grim feeling. I instantly fished my phone out of my bag, and read 4 messages. Two were from Joyce, and one was from Don. I nearly cried when I read their messages. She passed away. Frytz explained to me how. She became okay the week before (because after she got out, she was brought to the hospital again), but died of heart attack today. I didn't know what to say. It was unexpected. It was unthought of.

I didn't cry at that time. I spaced out. Went to oblivion. But when I was on my way home, alone on the bus, listening on my iPod, that was the time it really sinked (sunk?) in. Koj was gone. I never even got the chance to see her, to talk to her. I was trying so hard to stop myself from crying, because there were people beside me, but I failed. Tears flowed, I was trying so hard not to make a sound so as not to create a scene. I could barely breathe properly. Koj is gone. I never even got a chance to ask her for forgiveness. I fell asleep, crying, guilt eating my heart.

Koj, wherever you are now, please forgive me. I'm sorry I wasn't able to visit you. I may have been hard on you at times, but I am never going to forget the time and friendship you shared with me. I treasure them, with all my heart.

Gahd, I'm crying again.

New Snatching Strategy

2006-10-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

Well, it was new to me. Let me share. I experienced it, first hand.

I was on my way home from work. I rode the bus from Buendia to Las Piñas, it was kinda full, so I sat at the way back, in front of the 6-seat seat, on the aisle seat of a 3-seat seat (bus riders would know what I mean). The bus was full already, so new comers had to stand up. I was listening on my sister's iPod.

Then there was this guy who came, stood beside me. He was carrying a plastic full (not really full) of cartolina. Violet cartolina. And he was actually bluntly covering my face with the cartolina, to the point that what I could only see was violet, and my peripherals. Then there was this other guy, who kept on asking if there was still a seat beside me. Eh duh, it was pretty obvious that we were full already. And he was very insistent. I thought he was either drunk or high with drugs. Then I felt something on my left breast pocket in my polo. My cellphone was there.

Fortunately, my company ID was there too. The stupid asshole grabbed my ID, instead of my phone. I instantly (more like involuntarily) touched my pocket with my right hand. Then I heard a "tsk." It had to be a pretty loud tsk, cos I was listening on the iPod and you know me when I listen to music. Then the two guys left the bus.

And that's when things became clear to me. The guy carrying the cartolina was an accomplice. He deliberately covered my face with the cartolina so I wouldn't see his pal's hand grabbing my phone. It's really pretty hard to describe here. I'm hoping you get the idea, so you won't be a victim of this. Spread the word!

Of course, I admit that it was stupid of me to put my cellphone in my polo pocket. I usually put it in my pants, but my slacks pockets were shallow. But I was really fighting the urge to shout out to the guys, "Tanga ng kamay mo, magpractice ka pa!"

Anyway, I wouldn't deny that I didn't feel scared. I was shocked, really, that's why I wasn't able to trash-talk them.

In other news...

I have Erik Santos' version of Maging Sino Ka Man!!! Yeyy!! Thanks Jhaphet for looking for it :)

Hayatus

2006-10-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

That was meant. The spelling, that is.

Anyway, been a long time since I have blogged. Heck, been a long time since I last used the computer! Screw that typhoon. Didn't have electricity till last Saturday!

Anyway, I started work last Monday. Haha, can't believe that I'm gonna commute from Las Piñas to Ortigas for at least 3 years!! Hehe, I already bought a stored value card for the LRT and MRT yesterday. Anyway, we aren't doing that much yet. Just training, pretty much like reviewing OBJECTP.

I don't really know what to say here. I blog-hopped before I wrote this, and I got jealous of the posts of my friends, hehehe. Gahd. So many of them have updated their blogs, ages ago. Which really proves that I haven't been surfing the net for quite some time.

Oh yeah, I didn't really mind not having electricity during the typhoon days. But my cellphone had no signal!!! Gahddd!!! For 6 days!! Only now did my phone catch a signal at home. At Ortigas, I have a signal. Maybe the cellsites near Las Piñas went haywire. Sheesh. Thank God I have a signal now.

Anyway, I'm really really really missing a lot of people!! S22!! Where the hell are you?? Updates naman dyan :)

I might have my Sun number personalized. Wala lang. Hehehe.

Hmmm... Random thoughts:

1. I can't wait for Maging Sino Ka Man. Really. Chin Chin Gutierrez' line, "Get out!" in the commercial is really really well delivered! I'm loving her already! Plus the theme song. I still have to download Erik's version.

2. Once again, I'm becoming a movie-loser.

3. Pinoy Dream Academy. I can't believe that I'm watching it, after saying months ago that I wouldn't watch it. And gahd, they're allowed to talk about who they're voting??

4. I have the biggest problem in my non-existent-so-called "love life." And I need your help, seriously. I hope you know who you (the one I'm asking help from) are.

5. Oh man. I can't even forget about 4.

6. Make that 6.

Harhar!

Updates Updates

2006-09-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

Gahd. So many things have happened, I don't know where to begin. Let's begin from my previous post.

So yeah, I woke up so early, maybe I was both excited and nervous. And yeah, I got lost around Glorietta. Haha! Whattaloser. I wasn't able to find 6750 right away, maybe I walked the whole round lot of Glorietta before I found it. And it was effing hot. And even if I got lost, I was the first one there. Haha! It was supposed to start at 9, but I was there at 830. They started at 10, because almost everyone was late.

Yeah, P&G talk. It was kinda boring at first (or maybe I'm just really sleepy from the lack of sleep the night before). And yeah, the test wasn't really hard, the time was really just insufficient. Looks like I failed anyway. They haven't contacted me, and it's been a week. Oh well, doesn't really matter (I'll explain in a while). After the talk, we went to Glorietta (of course) to bum around.

Went to Timezone, didn't play though. They (Jerwin, Anco, JP, Allen, Bash, Lyka, Edel) did though. And then Edel, Lyka, Jerwin and I watched Dead or Alive. It was okay. The plot isn't really that witty. Really under-developed, but the special effects and the sound effects were fantastic. Great cinematography as well. Met up with Karen, Jhaphet, and Don after. Didn't really hang out much since it's almost closing time. Went home.

And yeah, I almost got lost around EDSA. Hahaha. But I'm starting to develop my-- innate compass. Hehehe.

That was Wednesday (a week ago). Thursday, just bummed around the house. Gahd. The reason why I haven't blogged for the longest time (a week of not blogging is long for me), is because I've been too engrossed with pRO's new server, Thor. I've been playing the whole week. Hehe. Except Friday.

Friday, went to Global 77 in Ortigas. Yeyy!! I got there on my own! Bus-LRT-MRT route. Got there an hour early. Yeah. Guess what. They already offered me a job! And I already accepted. Yes, I will be working for Global 77, probably by next week. (That's why I really don't care anymore if P&G and Accenture e-mail me or not). Mom said it's not good to turn down the first job offer, and I really wanted to work, and for them at that. But the requirements, gahd. They're so many, I haven't even started on one. Haha!

When I was on my way home from Ortigas, Danica (high school friend) texted me and asked if I wanted to watch John Tucker Must Die with the gang. Sure, I said. Didn't even go home to change clothes (I was wearing my pink long sleeves. I was supposed to wear the green one, but I was wearing my red bag, so I didn't really wanna look like a walking Christmas tree).

JTMD. It was okay. Haha. Sorry for this incoherent post. I'm typing so fast so I could play again. Hehehe. Report any typos immediately! Tucker's okay, really. It had those funny scenes and all. The plot's witty. Something not really new, but at least it isn't cliche like every movie that comes out nowadays. Good ending. 8/10.

There. Whew. Tomorrow, I'm gonna start doing those requirements. Hopefully.

Hey friends, haven't heard from you the longest time (Mascians, S22, etc). How's life? :)

Tired

2006-09-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

I wanna blog, but I'm really tired. So I'm just gonna list the things that happened today that I'll blog about tomorrow:

- waking up so early, going to 6750 so early, and being the first one to be there
- and oh yeah, getting lost in GLORIETTA
- P&G
- brain-cell killing exam
- Dead or Alive (movie)
- getting lost in EDSA

Grrr!!

2006-09-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

Waaa!! I am so frustrated and naiinis. This High Wizard beat me to killing Tao Gunka!! Kaasar talaga!! Piso na lang buhay niya, I swear, tapos namatay pa ako?!?! Pakshet.

Haha, okay, di na makarelate yung iba. Change topic.

You may not believe this, but I had a dream about Six again last night. Weirddd. And the other day, I dreamt about Rup driving a car! Hahaha! Uyy premonition!!

Anyway, 77 just called me today, and asked me to go to their office tomorrow. Ha! Too bad, I already have an appointment with P&G. I was sooo holding back myself from saying, "Sorry, I have an appointment with P&G, because I've waited for two freakin weeks for you to call!" Hahaha but of course I didn't say that. I just said that I wasn't available tomorrow. So he asked me when. I said Friday, because Thursday is Thor day! Wahaha!! Hmmm so that's why they're releasing Thor on Thursday!! Hahaha! But of course I didn't say that I'm playing Ragnarok the whole day Thursday.

Have to sleep early today for tomorrow. Wish me luck kiddos :)

The Call

2006-09-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

So here I was, yet again wasting my time in front of the computer, when suddenly, my cellphone rings. It was not registered in my phonebook, so I thought it was a company (Accenture perhaps).

So I answered it, and to my surprise, it was-- FITNESS FIRST! Hayop ka Jamie!! Nirefer mo ko, tapos hindi mo man lang sa akin sinabi!! WAHAHAHA! Lech. So this guy gave me the sales pitch about Fitness First, where do I live, have I been to any Fitness First, blah blah. He asked me if I was available this afternoon so that he could tell me the programs available, blah blah blah. Of course I said no! Heck! And then he asked me when I would be available. I didn't know what to say, but my mouth just blurted out, "Next week." And then he said he'll follow up next week, blah blah blah.

WHAT THE!! LANGYA KA JAMIE!! IKAW MAGBAYAD NG MEMBERSHIP KO!! =))

Anyway, yesterday, my sister, mom, and I went to SM Southmall to buy stuffs. As it was the last day of the 3-day sale, the place was pouring with people. In an hour, my feet hurt already. I wasn't able to buy anything except a new pair of disposable contact lenses. Since it was sale, the shop gave me and my sister (she also bought a pair) a travelling pack for the contact lenses, complete with solutions and the lens container. Coolness.

We also checked Globe's plans cos my sister was planning on getting a new phone. N70. But she couldn't afford it yet, so we checked the other shops. And I saw this fantastic brochure of my most loved cellphone (for now), N93. Gaahddd. I'm falling more in love with it everytime I read it. Harhar!

Then my sister and I went to mass at around 645. The priest was utterly boring. I think I fell asleep during the homily, for about 5 minutes. That was really the first time I fell asleep on a homily. Maybe I was tired from all that walking, or he really is boring.

Boring boring boring.

After-Post:

Yeyy!! I cleaned up my table! Or rather, arranged the junk, not really getting rid of junk :)) You can just imagine how bored I am, resorting to cleaning my table.

BTW, I have a few gadgets that are gathering dust. Maybe you wanna buy them lolss

1. Creative WebCam - the one I won during the University's Foundation Day, or whatever it was called. Barely used. Includes a CD installer, guide book, the box, everything.
2. Nokia Wireless Headset - the one I won on Nokia's Nokia 6260 online contest. Barely barely used. Note, this was a South East Asian contest, and I was one of the 5 (or 10) that won a wireless headset. Includes a CD installer, the booklet, the box, everything.
3. Portable USB Keyboard - the one I won during 77's seminar-talk thinggy. Jhaphet, since you have a job already, maybe you wanna buy this :) NOT USED! Includes the booklet thinggy and the box.
4. Sony Optical Mouse - no, I didn't win this on any contest. Hehehe. This is the one that Jed found in Gox Lobby. I'm not using it. Jed, I'll return it to you when we see each other (although tell me in advance so I can bring it, lols) No booklet thinggy, no box. Hehehe.

There. Whew. There were a lot of papers, cds, and whatevers on my table.

Maging Sino Ka Man

2006-09-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

Presenting ABS-CBN's new soap opera, Maging Sino Ka Man. (Magpromote daw ba? lol)

Can someone find me the mp3 of Erik Santos' version of Maging Sino Ka Man? Hehehe! Thanks!

The Dream

2006-09-16T08:07:00.000+08:00

Gahhdd. I went to bed last night (or more correctly, earlier) at 1AM, but I was staring into oblivion for light years, or at least it felt like it. I think it was around 3 already that I fell asleep.

Anyway, I had the weirdest dream. I was at SM Southmall, so early in the morning, when Six texts me, and asks me to buy medicine. I replied something like, "Hello di pa kaya bukas ang Mercury Drug dito." (But in reality, there is no Mercury Drug at SM Southmall [or is there??]) Anyway, Six texts back and says, "Sige naaaa..." Ahahaha! And then I meet Jesse Ann and Bernadette (high school friends that I haven't seen for the longest times) which is really weird because they don't live anywhere near SM Southmall, plus the time, it was way early in my dream. What's the weirdest thing is I forgot why I was at SM Southmall. Hahaha! And my dream was so... clear. Like I was really in it. I amaze myself because I remember most of my dreams, contrary to what people say that dreams are easily forgotten once you wake up.

I do hope that the dream means nothing, and that Six is okay... Not seeing Six for the past 2 weeks is actually helping me get over... But with dreams like this... How can I really get over?

Thank God for this dream because I woke up early today. For the past days, I woke up at past 12 noon. Hahaha! I hope this will cure my insomnia. I'm sleepy, but I must not fall asleep!

MVP

2006-09-15T15:02:00.000+08:00

Waaaa!!! After almost 4 years of playing Ragnarok Online, at last, I became an MVP!!!

Weeeee!!! Hahaha!! Excuse my kababawan. This is the first time, in all of my RO life, to kill a boss monster and become the MVP. Gahddd. It feels great!!

You Are The One

2006-09-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

So I was bored off my ass, so sue me. Hehehe.

No, seriously, I really wanted to watch this movie as well, and thank God that my mom wanted to watch it too, so I got a free movie :)

I'm surprised with myself actually. Lately (maybe for the past two or three years), I've been watching Filipino movies. Back in high school, I don't think we watched any Filipino movie at all.

Anyway, it was okay. Definitely a break from my monotonous, and not to mention, uber boring lifestyle since classes ended. Argh. It wasn't that predictable unlike the other Filipino movies. Except of course for the fact that I was able to guess yet again that Will (Sam Milby) was really the one looking for his parents. Sheesh. Sometimes, I hate my psychic me. It spoils things for me. Harhar.

Anyway, I suddenly felt lazy blogging. Hehehe. That ends today's update :)

KJ Alert

2006-09-04T00:57:00.003+08:00

Nooooo!!! I can't come with S22 peeps to Fontana!! *tear*

I forgot, it's my inaanak's birthday on 9. Graaarr. Mom didn't allow me to go. I have some serious convincing to do.

Edit:

Unfortunately, I really can't come. I forgot that I have a job interview on 8. Sigh. Oh well. Next time, S22 peeps, next time. :(( :(( :((

It's Overrr

2006-09-02T16:49:00.000+08:00

Almost. Dammit, I still haven't finished my SAship. SFA might hold my clearance, harhar! I'm deadmeat.

Anyway, got our course cards last Thursday. I pretty much guessed my grades correctly. Then S22 peeps and I went to Mall of Asia to eat at Chef d' Angelo. Yummyyyy. Mica, Lex, and I shared food. We bought onion strips, chicken fettuccini, and German chocolate cheesecake! Damn! The cheesecake was soooo good! And we each spent only 120 bucks!

Friday. I was supposed to go to school to continue my SA, but my head ached when I got up in the morning, probably because of lack of sleep. And almost forgot that my high school friends (Danica, Lorette, Julius) were planning to watch The Devil Wears Prada at night. So it was around 8 when I prepared, and left at around 845. The traffic was heavy! The movie starts at 930PM, and I got at SM Southmall at around 915. Then this stupid guard wouldn't let me in, blah blah blah. But I told him that my friends already bought me a ticket (which was true), so eventually he let me in. Blah blah, we were able to watch the beginning of the movie, even if we were 5 minutes late (when we got in, they were playing the National Anthem).

The Devil Wears Prada. It was okay. Meryl Streep (= p to Jed!) was excellent! Gahd! Pure evil! Especially that scene where she saw Andrea (Anne Hathaway) on the stairs at her pad, when she wasn't supposed to be seen. Man! You should've seen the look on her face. Purely terrifying. Hehehe. Anyway, yeah, the movie is okay. I say okay, because it isn't that great for me. There were a few (almost none) laugh-out-loud worthy scene, even if this obnoxious guy kept on laughing so hard.

Blah blah. Sorry, I wasn't really in the mood to blog... Pinilit ko lang. Harhar!

77 Global Services

2006-08-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

Grabe!! Kakaririn ko na tong kompanyang ito!! Wahahaha!!

Okay, let's start with how my day started. I woke up at 8 (I was planning on waking up at 6 so I could start my SAship at 8, but unfortunately I wasn't able to wake up, duh), so I got there at 10 and worked till 12. Went up to SC office to meet with Jhaphet, went to Starbs Taft to meet with Karen, then went to Century Park Hotel where the 77 Global Services Talk was going to be held.

We got there a few minutes past 1, and we were the first ones to be there. Ewww! So we signed up, then they had this raffle thing. The prizes were: 128MB flash disk, 256MB flash disk, wireless mouse, and a portable USB keyboard. Jhaphet and I signed up for the keyboard, then Karen signed up for the mouse. John Ross and his gang (Karl, Lloyd, Renz Eullo, Arun, TJ Mendoza, TJ Lumang, Kenley, Arun, sorry if I forgot someone) were just right behind us. So we went in first.

Others came too. Amiel, Justin, Michael, Anson, Jeff, Wren, Antet, Derrick, Lyka, Lulu, Marlon, and a couple of upperclassmen. Yeah, we were a bit few, but it was okay.

Grabe, the recruiting peeps were so jolly!! As in! They were really really okay, they weren't intimidating or anything. Of course, the pure talk part was kinda boring (I was sooo sleepy, not to mention hungry, and we all know that that is a bad combination especially when you're listening to a talk). Then came the question and answer portion. So we basically asked basic questions. Harhar! You know, how many were they going to accept, etc. Then they served food!! Yummy! Baked White Macaroni (hahaha), some finger food breads, and a mango thingy dessert. Hehehe. The food was great. I was actually able to satisfy my hunger earlier, even if the food didn't seem that much.

Raffle time!! Derrick won the 128MB, Marlon the 256MB, Kenley the mouse, and for the keyboard... YOURS TRULY!!! MWAHAHAHA!!! I WON THE PORTABLE USB KEYBOARD!! WAHAHAHA!! Jhaphet was so bitter at me! =p He really wanted the keyboard. Hehehe. Of course, he needs it more than I do, since his laptop keyboard is really off-beat. Karen was bitter at Kenley too! Hahaha! It's because Kenley didn't really sign-up for the mouse raffle, he was supposedly on the 256MB flashdisk raffle. Hehehe. And he won the mouse! Harhar! I was with 2 bitter people. Harhar!

And then they interviewed us, one-on-one. We were assigned to different people, and I was assigned to Ann (at least that's what I remember from the calling card she gave me). She was the jolliest person for me and I was really glad that I was assigned to her, even if initially I was assigned to another person. Anyway, we didn't really talk much about work and all. She just asked me how I found the talk they gave and all. Blah blah. She explained that there is a 3-year contract if we work with them (before that talk, I wasn't okay with a contractual type of work, but afterwards, what they have to offer appealed to me, so I said that yeah it's okay with me). She asked me if I had any questions. Blah blah. Just send to her my resume. Blah blah. And that's it. I think we were on the same wavelength, being jolly and all. Harhar!

So yeah, that's practically what happened today. Harhar I'm so happy!!

Anyway, it's course card day tomorrow. Hope I get good grades. My expected grades:

INSTORY - 2.0
GAMEDES - 2.5
LITERA1 - 2.5

We got a 4.0 for THESIS already! Yey!!

So it's just the SA that I'm worrying about. Sheesh. I'll finish by Friday. Hopefully.

Thank God!

Life Support

2006-08-27T20:48:00.000+08:00

Here's the video from the movie Rent.

Treb's Day Out

2006-08-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday, me and S22 blockmates, and some non-S22 peeps went to Mall of Asia, to go ice skating. Unfortunately, I was finishing something for thesis, so I wasn't able to join them on the ice. When I got there, they were already finished.

The good news is, thank God I wasn't able to skate. Hehe. They really didn't enjoy it. So we just walked around for a while. Blah blah blah (sorry I'm not really in the mood to blog).

Then we ate at Chef d' Angelo's. It was my first time to eat there, and I really thought that it was uber expensive there. It wasn't! Gahd. It was way better than TOSH (price-wise and servings-wise). I really really enjoyed their Chicken Fettuccini. Super yummy. And heavy on the stomach. Gahd, I was full in minutes. The pieces of chicken were scrumptious. I didn't like the mushroom much though. But still, I'd definitely eat there again.

And lo! Yesterday, Me, Karen and Don went to Robinson's Place Manila and ate there. Hehehe. I ordered, this time, Oven Baked Ziti. I liked the Fettuccini better. Hehe. But it was good too. And I also ordered Bacon and Cheese something Chowder. Hehe. Yummy.

Anyway, I'm still not done with our Mall of Asia adventures. Hehe. After eating, we went to the seaside part of Mall of Asia. Me, Mica, Lex, Jamie, and Rommel. I love it there!! Grabe. Super windy, and the smell isn't that bad. The view, amazing. Of course, it was dark by that time, and you couldn't really see anything in the ocean, except for the lights from ferries and buildings from afar. I could've stayed there forever.

Mica was playing Lex' harmonica. Haha! Laugh trip! We just stayed there for an hour maybe, talking and laughing a lot!

Then we went home. Or THEY went home. When they were able to ride their respective rides home, I went to mine. There were only a few people in the van, and the driver was waiting for it to be full. And it was super hot inside!! The AC wasn't on, so I decided to just go back later, and besides, I badly needed to charge my phone, so I looked for a charging station or something.

I asked the customer service and they were able to tell me where I could possibly charge my phone. I went there (it was kinda far from the transpo station), and asked for my phone to be charged. Unfortunately, NONE of their Nokia chargers worked on mine (I know right?? Nokia chargers are supposed to be universal for all Nokia phones, and yet none worked on mine), so I headed back to the station. But I got lost!!! Hahahaha!! I walked around for thirty minutes, and when I got back, the van already left! It was around 10 already.

So I rode on another van, and I was the only person there! Gahhhhd. I waited for an hour. Or maybe more. Thank God the iPod still has some energy (or charge or whatever). I was singing Life Support and Finale B for all the time I was waiting. Hehehe.

Speaking of Life Support and Finale B, I am sooo addicted to these songs lately. It's all I'm playing now in Media Player. And Seasons of Love. I'm posting the lyrics in a while. Hehehe.

So there, I reached home at almost 12. And the deadline for our GAMEDES paper was 12!! Imagine. I was able to pass it, 3 na. Grabe. For two consecutive days, I'm so sleep-deprived.

This entry is so messy, jumping from topic to topic. Hehehe. So I'll leave it at that. And now, here's the lyrics of my LSS song.

LIFE SUPPORT
Rent OST

Look - I Find Some Of What You Teach Suspect
Because I'm Used To Relying On Intellect
But I Try To Open Up To What I Don't Know

Because Reason Says I Should Have Died
Three Years Ago

There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
All life is yours to miss

No Other Road
No Other Way
No Day But Today

Senti Mode

2006-08-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

College's almost over.

I don't know if I'm supposed to be happy. Back then, I was so excited to graduate from college so that I could get a job and earn and all. But now... I dunno... The prospect of being apart from people is depressing. EspeciallythispersonIdontknowifIlleverseeyou againYoullforeverbeapictureinmycellphoneandamemoryinmyheart
*sigh* Hope our (S22 blockmates) day out tomorrow would make things easier to let go, and forget. Make me happy, friends.

By the way, friends, I'm bringing a dedication notebook tomorrow (actually I'm still gonna buy tomorrow, hehehe), please do see me so that you could write on it. You know who you are :)

Plus it's raining again. *sigh* I hate the rain. It makes me feel lonely.

My Super Ex-Week

2006-08-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

Wow. This past week was one of the best weeks I've had this term.

It was John Ross' birthday last 15. They passed their thesis defense (okay, so it isn't about me, but they're my friends and I'm happy for them), then Ross treated me, Don, Karen, Jerwin, Frytz, Loyvin, Michael, Kester to Yellow Cab and to Grill's J (not sure about the name though) last 17. Kes wasn't there (at YC) first, and he just followed when we were in Grill's. We all shared 2 buckets of SMB Light (each containing 6). Don drank 2 bottles like water. Harhar! Course Karen didn't drink, and Jerwin drank only one. Then Karen, Don, and Jerwin went back to Gox.

Ross ordered another bucket, and Frytz bought another one too. So we drank like 4 each. Yeah, I was pretty much light-headed already. At least I could still think, and go to the CR. Harhar. We also bought different "pulutans" like sisig, onion rings, chicharong bulaklak, and tokwa't baboy. Then Gelo came, and he bought another bucket. Sheesh. Ross, Michael, Loyvin and I were leaving, so Loyvin and I just shared one bottle. Birthday boy was pretty much-- light-headed too. Hehehe. Then we left Frytz, Kes, and Gelo there.

Ross rode a cab, then the three of us proceeded to Taft. Loy and I were riding a bus together on the other side of Taft, so we said our goodbyes to Michael. We got on a bus within minutes, thank God, as I really was sleepy (I haven't had a wink of sleep from the night before because I finished our INSTORY visual presentation), not to mention really really light-headed. I couldn't close my eyes when we were on the bus, because my mind was really floating to oblivion, and my head ached more, so I really really tried hard not to close my eyes. And within minutes, I needed to go to the bathroom again. I was tempted to ask Loyvin for us to get down so I could pee, but I held it in, even if I knew that it would take much longer for us to reach home, plus he was asleep. Hehehe.

[Something happened here, but I ain't gonna tell. Harhar!]

Oh well. At last, I reached my get-off point, said goodbye to Loyvin, and got off the bus. As soon as I got off, I did something that I swore I'd never do. I went to a grassy area, and peed. Harhar! So sue me. I couldn't hold it any longer. It was a first for me. And yeah, I'm swearing now that I'll never do it again. I peed for like three minutes. Walked home, reached home, took off my shoes, and slept.

I woke up at 4AM. Texted the guys (since we told each other that we would text each other as soon as we got home, but no one did) why they didn't text, then went back to sleep. Woke up at 11 or 12, ate, took a bath, went back to school.

Friday, August 18. Nothing much really happened. Don, Karen, Jhaphet and I ate at KFC for dinner, then went to Starbucks to hang out. Hahaha, we had a lot of funny things to talk about. Mostly disgusting stuffs, especially when you're eating a chocolate Belgian waffle. Harhar!

Got home at 12, used the computer till 2, then slept.

Saturday, August 19. Woke up at 7AM for our last GAMEDES class, last class of the term, last class for college. Awwww. Yep. I'm graduating. We're graduating. Wooohoo!! Anyway, I got to school at 845 cos we were supposed to meet for our presentation of our game. It went well, I guess. Class ended at 12. Ate at Venue with Rup, Lani, Z, Sue, Anjo, James, Rommel, Jamie. Went to Microsmith for Rup's group's DOTA game. Unfortunately, they lost. Blah blah blah.

Around 330PM, Jerwin, Karen, Don, Joyce, Jhaphet and I went to Glorietta to watch a movie. We watched My Super Ex-Girlfriend. It was cool! A great movie. I liked it. Really funny and original. Though there was one thing about the movie that I didn't like that much, but I won't spoil it for you guys who wanna watch it. I'd recommend the movie though. Really worth it.

Around 6 (I think) we went to that place with a man-made pond, and cam-whored. Harhar! Don and Joyce left, so we headed to Cafe Bola (?) to eat. Karen treated us (Jerwin, Jhaphet, Me)! Yeyyy!! I barely spent money today since Jerwin had a debt to me months ago when we watched Superman Returns, so he paid for my movie today. Then Karen treated us dinner. Coolness. We cam-whored there again. Harhar! Just check my Multiply site later, when Jhaphet uploads it and I steal them. Harhar!

So here I am now, waiting for something good to happen next. S22 blockmates and I are planning a day out this coming Tuesday. We're probably gonna go and ice skate, then watch a movie (but they might be watching Super Ex).

This is definitely a great end to my college years. Cheers!!

Crappy PC

2006-08-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

Uh huh. This PC is hopeless. It keeps on booting on its own. I seriously hafta reformat. And I hope I have money to buy that combo drive. Thank God school's almost over-- SCHOOL'S ALMOST OVERRRRR!!!!

Uh huh. Just INSTORY and a few thesis things to do, and I'm done. At last. After 10 long terms.

And I can't wait to eat at TOSH later. Hehehe. That chix and shroom is calling my name. Gahd :p~

And the Bad Luck Goes On

2006-08-12T21:08:00.000+08:00

Uh huh. Wednesday, August 9. I was supposed to go to the hospital to visit a friend, when my stomach started aching. So I went home instead. As soon as I got off the bus, I vomitted (sorry to those who are eating). I decided to walk home since the line for the tricycle was wrong, and in case I felt like vomitting again, I could, even if my stomach was really aching. And when I was like ten meters away from home, I vomitted again. Ugh. Talk about-- yucky.

I got home, dressed, then went to bed. My stomach was really really aching, almost like the pain I felt when I had the appendicitis. I was really writhing in pain. Around 9PM, I couldn't take it anymore. My mom decided to bring me to the hospital. Uh huh. Twice in three months, I was rushed to the hospital. I feel weak. I feel like my health is really... waning.

They "injected" five times. One in my upper right arm (Placyl, to prevent vomitting. Apparently it didn't work because after I drank the antacid they asked me to drink, I vomitted it after 2 minutes), one in my upper left arm (Buscopan, for the stomach pain. I was really wondering why they didn't give me that right away. They had to hear me moan like hell first, before they gave it to me. Jerks. Hehehe. Oh by the way, I'm still thankful for Medical Center of Manila for saving my life twice, almost in a row), one in my middle right arm (blood sample for the blood test. However, the klutzy medical personnel wasn't able to extract any blood, I think he injected wrongly), one in the middle left arm (this is where he was able to get a blood, although he had to move the needle around to hit a vein. Yeah, the needle was already inside my skin, and he was moving it around as if looking for something to hit. Geez), and one in my right hand, the IV.

Whoa. I've had a lot injections in the past three months, that I almost felt nothing. Or maybe it's the stomach pain. They took my x-ray as well. Thank God I didn't have to be confined. We had our LITERA1 play the next day. We were discharged from the hospital around 330AM. Got home, slept. I woke up better than the day before. But I had to go to school for the play.

Sorry if I sound like I'm rushing. I'm in a computer shop now, because the PC at home is freakin broken. Uh huh. It goes on and on. Wish it will stop.

Gotta go. They're almost closing.

*Sorry if there are typos and grammatical lapses. I'm really in a rush.

Must... Sleep...

2006-08-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

Gahd. Last Thursday-- err make that Friday early morning, I slept at 7AM, to finish those test results. Woke up at 12. Then Saturday early morning, I slept at 4AM, to finish that game design document. I feel soooo sleepy. And I feel like this zombie.

I'm gonna burn my money tomorrow. I can't remember the last time I bought myself clothes. Plus I have to pay my cellphone bill.

TOSH

2006-08-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

I'm the 6000th visitor in my blog. Hehe.

Wow. That Chicken and Mushroom Spaghetti in The Old Spaghetti House was exquisite. Very very delicious. It seems not stomach-filling, but it is. The sauce was heavy. Maybe I'll eat there tomorrow again. Hehehe.

I'll continue this later...

The Bad Luck Goes On

2006-08-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah. A day after my mom's birthday, she lost her wallet. Coin purse to be exact. Only, it didn't contain only coins, but some bills as well. Uh huh.

Okay, so maybe that really isn't that big of a deal compared to our other problems (re: previous post), but still, it counts as bad luck.

And to think we watched Sukob yesterday. *shivers*

Speaking of movies, Sukob is ONLY my 9th movie of the year!!! How much of a loser can I get?? Gahd. I can't believe it. So far, I've only watched (including the people I watched the movie with):

1. Mano Po 4: Ako Legal Wife - Jamie, Lex, Rommel
2. Underworld 2 - JV, Svet
3. Zathura - Don, Joyce, JV, Karen
4. Brokeback Mountain - JV, MJ, Svet
5. Da Vinci Code - Don, Karen
6. Over The Hedge - Jamie, Rommel
7. X-Men 3: The Last Stand - Anjo, James, Jamie, Jed, Noel, Rommel, Rup, Z
8. Superman Returns - Don, Jerwin, Joyce
9. Sukob - Mica, Mico

Uh huh. What a loser. Movies I missed that I shouldn't have missed:

1. Scary Movie 4 (even if I heard that it's not that good)
2. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest (I am sooooooo so regretful that I wasn't able to watch this. Is it still showing?)
3. Just My Luck (Looks cool, it's a chick flick. Haha!)
4. Lake House (The plot seems good. Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock, love flick. I'm a sucker for these.)
5. Garfield: A Tail of Two Kitties (For laughs.)
6. Mission Impossible III (Uh huh. That scene where a car explodes and Tom Cruise flies. Haha. Now I wasn't able to see that.)

Actually, 2 and 3 are still showing. Who wants to watch Pirates with me?? :D

Looking forward to:

1. Click (Gahd, I've seen the trailer of this months ago.)
2. The Devil Wears Prada (I heard that Meryl Streep is excellent here, and so is Anne Hathaway)
3. My Super Ex-Girlfriend (Uma Thurman. Nothing. Haha. I liked her in... Prime.)
4. Spiderman 3 (Haha! May 2007! Goodluck!)
5. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (July 13, 2007! Haha! Goodluck!)

Hmmm.. Can't think of anything else.

You Pull My Plug...

2006-08-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

Oh God. This has to be the crappiest, unluckiest year of my life. Of our lives. The Guevarra-Sese Clan. And the year hasn't even started on its fourth quarter.

First, I was confined for a week and operated on. Then my father's brother died. Then our dog Fluffy died, and on that same day, my sister got robbed. And now, my grandmother's sister is in the hospital. I've never been through such ordeal in my life. All in two months.

And I still don't have a poem for the poetry recital tomorrow. No wait, make that today. 15 hours left.

... and I'll pull yours.

Latter Days

2006-07-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

Arlene, I'm hating you!! Hahaha!

Grabe. Had an exciting conversation with my block bestfriend yesterday. Hahaha. Even if-- well. Don't worry Arlene, I'll try not to hope. Of course. What was I thinking. But I'm still wondering. Why didn't you tell me...

Anywayyyyyyy, classes resume tomorrow, and it's my pictorial for the yearbook. Gahd. I'm still feeling lazy. Plus I don't have a poem yet for the poetry recital, plus we haven't practiced for the drama festival either, equals dum dum dum.

I'm gonna sleep early today. So I'll look refreshed tomorrow. Harhar. Bon nuit!

Smirks

2006-07-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

Hihihihi. I've never felt this-- giddy and excited and-- in God-knows-when. Hahaha. That surely made my day. Thanks.

Yep. It's raining again. That cold and alone feeling settles back once more. Haha, but that really made my day. Or night, since it's night already. Whatever. I don't really care. Haha. You should see this goofy smile on my face. Hahahaha. Like Mikey's when-- yeah.

Loved that episode of Desperate Housewives earlier on Studio 23. Especially the last scene, the ladies playing poker, Betty taunting Bree, and Bree fighting back. Exquisite.

*sigh* If you only knew.

Of Dogs and Bars

2006-07-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

Just one dog, actually. Damn, Sis! I could've lived without reading your blog! Haha!

I noticed that my sister updated her blog, so I checked it out. Oh yeah, she got holdupped(?) yesterday. Yeah. Effing morons (my sister said they were five or six, and they pointed a balisong at her) stole her cellphone and wallet. Gawd. I would've passed out if that happened to me. The office she works in were very kind to her. They gave her the day off! Haha! And my sister, nawalan na nga ng wallet, aba, nagshopping pa with her boyfriend! Hayup! Haha! Hold year head up high Sis, hold your head up high.

It happened the same day, that Fluffy left us. Yesterday was a really bad day for all of us.

So anyway, she was whining (hehehe) about her phone and all, and then she wrote something about Fluffy, and I (without permission, but who cares, at least I'm acknowledging her) quote:

"To Fluffy, may you rest in peace. Siguro nasa doggie heaven ka na ngayon. Mami-miss kita Fluffy. Sana naantay mo ko makauwi kahapon. Hindi na tuloy kita makakantahan ng 'Maliit na Fluffy, lumalaki! Konting balahibo, dumarami!' Goodbye Fluffy, sana pakita ka pa rin sa amin."

[My sister wasn't able to see her anymore. My other sister and I, we buried her already. Mom wasn't able to see Fluffy anymore too.]

Yeah, I almost cried. Almost. Thanks to that song! Hahaha! I remember that song. We used to sing it to her, based on the song "Maliit na butas, lumalaki." Oh God. It's been a day, and still, I'm pining. Fluffy was the only one at home who knew the real me. And she was a dog. I will sure miss walking with her around the village. And I'm teary-eyed again. Damn.

My other sister (the one that wasn't holdupped) noticed a brown butterfly outside our window just a while ago. Thanks for visiting Fluffy. Please watch over us. We'll surely miss you. She's happy now, that I'm sure of.

BarCamp. Heard of it? Yeah, it's new to me too. I was browsing the different blogsites of Filipinos in RiceBowlJournals, and I came across this guy's blog, and he had an entry about BarCamp, which kinda caught my attention. It's about organizing an "unconference," teaching about stuffs to other people. What caught me was that it was a venue for sharing, learning, and making new friends. Yeah, sounds like not me. Hahaha. But really. It sounds cool. Leave me a buzz if it interests you as well, maybe we could come up with something here in the Philippines (BarCamp started in the United States, I think). Check out the BarCamp site as well.

Waiting for our thesis updates...

Fluffy (1994-2006)

2006-07-21T12:55:00.000+08:00

Fluffy was a great dog. She is.

A few weeks ago, we were worried. She wasn't eating. And she was unusually sad. She wouldn't walk around the house as she used to. She wouldn't run out the door, out the gate when we left them open. We decided to bring her to a vet. The vet gave her vitamins to drink. We gave it to her, with difficulty, as she didn't want to drink it. But we gave it to her, and she went back to normal. Happy, excited, and always running.

And then, she became sad again. We knew she was in pain. She didn't eat for days. Always lying down. We felt it. And deep inside, I was worried, but I didn't show it. We gave her vitamins again, but this time, she didn't get better. We even bought her Ensure (that freakingly expensive drink that's supposed to be full of vitamins and minerals and everything else), and used a medicine dropper to give it to her. She took it, but still, she was sad. But we didn't give up. We continued feeding her. She wouldn't even eat her favorite food, fried chicken. We were hoping that she'll be okay. My sister, she talked to her. She said, "Fluffy, kung di mo na kaya, magpahinga ka na." And I was praying. Until today. There she was, lying on the floor, eyes wide open. She wasn't moving. She's gone.

And my sister and I, we cried, so hard, thinking that we have no dog anymore, that we don't have Fluffy anymore. We cried, without shame. We loved Fluffy. We all did. But now, we won't hear her barks at night anymore. We won't hear her scratching at the door when she wants to go outside. Fluffy is a special dog. Once, I overslept, and my hand was hanging out of the bed. She licked it, and I woke up. I love to think that she was waking me up on purpose, because she knew I was late for class. We let her sleep in our rooms.

She's gone now. I'll miss her. Wala nang sasalubong sa akin when I get home. She always knows when someone has just arrived. She'll immediately walk to the door and wait for it to be opened. No dog can replace her. I didn't expect that it would be this painful. It really is hard, you know, when you lose a loved one. And tears are still falling from my eyes. I'm only sorry that she died hurting. She wasn't even happy. Bye Fluffy. Home will never be the same again. And I don't want to stay in this house anymore. Because it will always remind me of her.

Software In Review: BitComet 0.70

2006-07-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Well, our own software is taking some time in image processing, so I decided to blog for a bit.

Introducing a new feature in my blog, Software In Review. The title says it all. I introduce a software that I think is cool and useful, and I'll share it to the whole wide world. Harhar!

And for all torrent lovers out there, here's our debut software to the series: BitComet 0.70. It's a torrent downloader, but it's so much more than that.

It actually allows you to select which files in the torrent you're only going to download! How cool is that?? For some of you who may not know, a torrent may contain more than one file. Other torrent downloaders (like BitTorrent) wouldn't allow you to download only some files in the torrent, which makes this the super feature of BitComet (at least for me).

Plus, it allows you to search for torrents through different websites! It has an integrated browser, plus links to different torrent sites. Now that is handy! (Haha, do I sound like a telemarketer already?)

Aaaaand, you can actually preview the file you're downloading (if it's a video or something)! Well, to be honest, I haven't tried out that one yet, but it says so on its description. Hehehe. It has more features that I haven't tried yet, but I'm already lovin' this program. Harhar!

Credits to Beni for introducing the software to me! So what are you waiting for?? Dial 0922-- joke! Hehe. But if you want a copy, you can just search for it on the net, or leave a message and I'll send it to you. (I downloaded that 3MB+ installer for like 45 minutes! I think there was something wrong with their server or something.)

Rain

2006-07-13T17:25:00.000+08:00

While taking a break from testing (thesis), I blog-hopped, and came upon a few quotes from a friend's blog.

Life is like a rainbow. You need both the sun and the rain to make its colors appear.

How true. And how related it is to the title of my blog. Life, Love, and the Hell in Between. I already experienced the hell. Then how come I'm not experiencing the other. Hence, the next quote.

I love walking in the rain, 'cause then no one knows I'm crying.

*sigh* My life is always raining, 'cause no one notices that I'm crying all the time. I hate these rainy days. They make me feel-- cold, and alone. I'm not even glad that classes are suspended.

Say it if it's worth saving me.

Savin' Me

2006-07-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

by Nickelback

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Hurry I'm fallin'

And all I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Hurry I'm fallin'

Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Hurry I'm fallin'

I first learned about this song during the peak of the X-Men 3: The Last Stand movie. I was looking for trailers on YouTube, and some guy made a music video of the clips from the trailers of the movie, with the background song of Savin' Me. It was awesome. I instantly fell in love with the song (with the help of the X-Men 3 clips).

And now, I looked for the original video of Savin' Me. And I fell in love again. The music video was so cool. The video was well done. The concept was fresh. A great video for a great song. Well done, Nigel Dick (director of the video).

Here's the music video by some guy on YouTube.

And here's the original music video by Nickelback and Nigel Dick.

And you can download the song on my Multiply site.

World Cup Update:

MWAHAHAHAHA!! I'm such a great psychic. First of all, France defeated Brazil in the quarter finals, Italy defeated Germany in the semi-finals, and France defeated Portugal in the semi-finals. And it's now Italy vs France for the finals, on July 9, just like what I "foresaw." Harhar! I hope France wins.

*waves the flag of France*

Score!

2006-06-28T18:21:00.000+08:00

At last, I'm back.

Not everyone knows, or more correctly, only a few knows that I was hospitalized and operated on last week. And they knew by accident. My sister was the one who replied to them, as I was unable to. I didn't plan on telling anyone, really. I didn't want the sympathy, and besides, people were already busy, academics, graduation and all. What I needed last week though, were prayers.

June 17, Saturday.

We had a class from 9-12. At around 1030, the professor gave us break time. Knowing me, I didn't go back, and instead, hanged-out (?) with Don. We ate brunch at Eric's and the Cantonan's. I ate 8 pieces quail eggs and 2 packs pancit canton. Then we went to our thesis rooms, and stayed there for a while. We left at around 5, and ate at KFC. I had Hot Shots meal. Then we went home.

Used the computer as soon as I got home. At around 11, my stomach started hurting. I thought that I had the same case as Z's stomach ache a few weeks back, because of the food from KFC. Every time I burped, I could taste the Hot Shots (gross). I slept at 3, with a stomach ache.

June 18, Sunday.

Woke up at around 10, with a stomach ache. Opened the computer, used it till 12, then slept, with a stomach ache. Woke up at 6. Vomited. It was rice, or something white. Then ate lunch/dinner. It was Father's Day, we had spaghetti. It was good but I didn't have the appetite, stomach ache. It was getting more painful, but still tolerable. Watched TV. Slept at around... 11 or 12.

June 19, Monday.

Woke up at around 3AM. The pain was horrible. I was groaning. My mom woke up and heard me, and gave me SkyFlakes and milk. The pain was getting stronger by the minute, to the point of intolerability. At around 5, mom moved me to the living room so the doctor friend of theirs could see me. But ten minutes later, it was really really really hurting. Pain beyond imagination. I was groaning incohesively. I thought I was dying (seriously). I couldn't even stand up. They rushed me to Manila Medical Center, a good hour-drive away.

We got there. They put me on a wheelchair, drove me to the ER (Emergency Room for my non-Nursing friends, hehehe), and there was this stupid doctor who told me, "Don't moan, I can't interview you well." HELLERRR??? It was really really really to the nth power hurting. But fine, I tried to keep my composure. And then I vomited. A lot. Dr. Pineda, a long-time doctor of our family and my attending physician at that time, felt that it was appendicitis, because my stomach was harder than normal, and so is the appendix part. I forgot what happened afterwards. I remember being injected for IV (intravenous therapy, searched it on Wikipedia, otherwise known as Dextrose [dex•tros] for other people), x-rayed, then brought up to our room, all the while still feeling that immense pain in my stomach and appendix.

The surgeon, Dr. Villamayor, felt that I needed to be ultrasounded to be sure that it is indeed appendicitis, so I was ultrasounded. Pain pain pain. I remember staying for a while in our room, then operation time came.

June 19, 8PM.

There I was, lying on the operating bed whatever, not sure of what will happen. I was lying spread eagle. Not really. My feet were together, but my arms were spread apart. Like a cross. The minutes went by. There was this automatic blood pressure taker (the one that gets tighter on your upper arms). They were attaching small buttons on my body and fingers. At around 820, the doctor injected something on my IV, and then it went black.

June 20, somewhere around 2AM.

I woke up still lying, shaking so badly. There were people around me. I could hear voices. One said, "Nilalamig siya." I was a quarter-conscious. I think I wasn't even seeing well. I vomited. A lot. Then it went black.

Somewhere around 4AM.

I woke up. I was feeling-- strange. Not well. I raised my right hand a little and waved it. A guy nurse came. I asked him where I was. "ICU Sir." Then I felt something weird on my-- member. Then I felt like peeing. I raised my right hand again a little and waved. A guy nurse (I didn't know if it was the same one) said that it's okay, it'll just flow out. Eh? I was perplexed by what he said. Anyway, I went back to sleep.

Somewhere around 5AM.

I was brought back to our room. I was feeling groggy.

Doc Villamayor explained to us the procedure that was done. Will get gruesome from this point onwards, so not for the weak stomach. They opened up my stomach area, and found out that the appendix had indeed ruptured and spread dirt (I don't know if it was poop or not) all over my internal organs. They had to clean it profusely. Some of the organs were infected by the dirt and swolled (swelled, whatever) up. Pus invaded these organs, and they had to be removed as well. Doc even said that a tabo worth of pus was collected, and was like condensed milk (Oh man, when he told us that, that condensed milk part, I instantly loathed him. I like condensed milk!). They stitched me up, a good 7 or 8 inches long. So much for a great bod.

For days, I didn't eat. Until on Thursday, June 23, I was allowed to eat-- gelatin. The doctors said I still couldn't digest well so that was all for me. The next day though, I was allowed to eat what they called "soft diet." Lugaw, in short. That was better, at least. Then the next day, I was now prepared for a "hard diet." Normal food. The first thing that came to mind was Greenwich's Chicken Ala King. I was able to eat half of it for lunch, and the other half for dinner, which I vomited later on. I vomited a lot. I might have vomited as much as I've vomited for the past 18 years. And the stitch and my internal organs hurt every time I vomit or even cough a bit. Really painful, but not as much as days before.

Oh, and that weird thing in my member, catheter. It's a tube for my pee. Oh man, you wouldn't believe the size of it, or rather the circumference of it. It was cylindrical in shape and inserted in my-- member. It was THICK. My mom and I were wondering how they inserted it. It was really wide around. Like, half a centimeter in radius. Or maybe 0.7 centimeters in diamter. Really wide. The time came that it has to be removed. Oh no. I asked the female nurse if it was going to be painful. She said, "Medyo." Screw her! It hurt like hell (but still not as much as the pain in my stomach. I told you, it was really that painful. I really thought I was dying)!!! Slowly, another female nurse pulled it out, hurting more as it went away. It was about 2 inches long. 2 bloody inches! Inside my-- thing! And wide! I couldn't pee well after that, so I just slept it off.

Relatives visited me. Tito Dante, Tita Vangie, Tita Linda, my sisters and my father. Even if a few friends knew that I was in hospital, I didn't tell them what hospital. Haha! I didn't want to be visited. Well, not entirely, given the condition that I was in. I haven't shaved for days, and taken a bath. Eww. I think Joyce and Eddie were the first ones to know, because my sister replied to their text messages, saying that I was in the hospital and couldn't reply to them.

So there. That actually isn't all, I might have forgotten something. Oh man, the bills. I don't even want to talk about it.

June 26.

I got out of the hospital. Went home. Home felt kinda new, but still homey, if you know what I mean.

June 27.

And now, I'm a score old! A score young rather. I'm still young. My birthday wasn't all that happy. Mainly because of what happened the previous week. I'd like to thank those who greeted me (Mica, Mish, Arlene, Mad, Jamie, Joyce, Kojen, Rommel, Danica, Sue, Morts, Sed, Jhaphet, Kester, Lex, MJ, Jocs, Mark Abat, Kai, Jerwin, Julius, Ed, Yana, Gox, Egay, Beni, Dyann, JV, Cherrie, Kare). Yes, I keep their text messages. Even from last year's. Don said he texted me, but I didn't receive any. Don said Karen texted me too. Thanks guys! Joakim, Jed and Iris greeted me via YM. Thanks thanks. And those who didn't greet me as well, it's okay. Hehehe.

I'd like to take this opportunity to thank my friends who bid me get-well-soon's. Of course, thanks to my family for helping me get through this, my sisters, brothers, father, aunts and uncles, and especially my mom, who stayed with me in the hospital for the days I were confined. She really is a great mom. She never left my side. Mainly because I didn't want her to go home. Hehehe. She had to sleep on the floor at nights just to be with me. She really did sacrifice a lot, not only financially, but physically as well. Mom's the best. I love you Ma! Mwah!

I'd like to thank God, for giving me 20 great years in my life, and hope to be given more. Thank you for giving me the strength to face this challenge. Thank you for giving me my second life.

This truly is an unforgettable 20th birthday. Cheers to life!

*I was tempted to post a picture of my stitch, but I think even I would be grossed out by it.

Vlog

2006-06-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

What the fucking hell is wrong with England??? 66 minutes into the game, and they haven't even scored a single goal against Trinidad and Tobago. Come on.

Anyway, I was browsing through Veoh [more on this later], and I chanced upon somebody's vlog, or video blog. It looks cool actually, just talking in front of the cam, not worried about a typographical error or something, not tiring your hands out. But then again, for people who are camera-shy (like me), it sounds-- daunting, nerve-wracking! Haha, just the thought of it makes me laugh. Maybe I'll try that sometime.

Okay, off to Veoh. Don't ask me where I first chanced upon this. Hehe. Anyway, it's like YouTube, but better. Why, you ask? Well first off, it's also like Friendster; you can add people there and be "friends." And of course, you get to upload videos. But most [importantly], they support-- ~~porn!~~ MWAHAHAHAHA!!! Unlike YouTube that is.

Hihi. Anyway, yeah, I might try that video blog sometime. But I don't think I'll upload it anywhere! Haha! Just keep it for memories, my first Vlog.

EDIT:

I won't be surprised if I am just a blockmate to you too. After this. But you were a friend. You really were.

EDIT EDIT:

MWAHAHAHAHA!!! England won by 2 goals! Peter Crouch scored a goal 83 minutes into the game, and then another by Steven Gerrard (91'). That's a 2-0 win for England!! Haha, I can taste the finals already.

Smile At Me

2006-06-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

by Rocksteddy

Funny how I fell for you
And the day you caught my eye
And my life has never been the same
Since the day I saw your smile

As it shine above of everyone
You stand out from the crowd
Somehow I can't find the words to say
You're indescribable

You sweep me off my feet
Everytime you smile at me, at me, at me

You light my way
You always take my breath away
You set me free
With every time you smile at me

There's this feeling that I can't hide
That I couldn't get enough of you
I can't deny, I'm mesmerized
By the beauty of your smile

Cause you knock me off my seat
Every time you smile at me, at me, at me

You light my way
You always take my breath away
You set me free
With every time you smile at me

You light my way
You always take my breath away
You set me free
With every time you smile at me

Sorry if there are wrong words there. I was typing while listening to the song, I couldn't find the full lyrics for it, so I made one. Hehe. Credits to Mico for telling me the title of the song, and to Badette for without her multiply account, I couldn't have found out the artist of the song. Thanks!

I was about to bold out the lines of the song that were relevant for my "life," but then I would have to bold the entire song. Aw what the heck. I'll bold it out anyway.

Wake Up

2006-06-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

~~Why are people so fucking full of themselves.~~

~~Hellowww. You're not the only person in this world. But you're probably the only selfish one. Sheesh. Gahd. How you've changed. How disappointing.~~

And why the fucking hell are there people with pride as tall as the Empire State building? Puhlease. They can't even really make an apology. As in REALLY make an apology. They can't even accept their mistakes. How pathetic. I pity these people. I admit, I used to have pride as immense as the Mt. Everest. But I've changed. I have. Believe me people, pride won't do you any good. So take care of it while you're still a teenager. Or maybe not.

Graaarrr. 51 minutes into the game and France hasn't scored yet. They hafta beat Switz!

Very disappointing. I dedicated almost all of my college life to what I believe in, and it's crumbling right before my face. Tsk tsk. People really are full of themselves, especially people in position. And people who think they are in position. Ha! Wake up dear. I've given more to this belief. You have no right.

54 minutes, still no score. 57. Wake up. Wake up.

I fell on my knees. I didn't notice that I was walking towards the pavement. It was so dark outside, I felt like I was blind. But I didn't flinch. On the contrary, I felt excited, and more adventurous. I rubbed the dirt off of my knees, thanking Sherlock that I wasn't wounded. Then I looked at the sky.

62. Still no score.

The night sky is clear today. No visible moon, no twinkling stars, no wisps of clouds. Just a vast, infinite shade of dark blue. The air was crisp and cool. I drank the sight around me, above me. The street lamps weren't much of a help in my vision; they were very old, and some of them were even broken. But they can't stop me. Nothing can. I am on a mission. Whoever stole Pete's basketball is gonna pay. Watch out, here comes Detective Luke, out to get criminals and law-breakers!

[^I'm having problems with this part. I can't cohere my thoughts.]

67 and still no score, gaddamit! Zinedine Zidane, Thierry Henry, Patrick Vieira wake up!

Once I got hold of my position, I walked towards Pete's house, which was a good seven houses away from our own. There was no one else awake. There was no living thing in sight, except of course for the plants. Lights were on inside the houses, but there was nothing moving inside. I walked very slowly, carefully and silently. I looked at my left. Right. Back. No one. After a few minutes, I reached Pete's front lawn.

I tiptoed in their lawn, looking for something that the thief might have left behind. Something, a cap, a key, or a calling card perhaps. The lawn was clear. Looks like Mrs. Del Rosario cleaned the scene of the crime already. I sighed. Before I could turn around, a hand gripped my right arm. My heart jumped.

86 and no score. *sigh*

"You little runt! Where do you think you're going?" my brother Alfred said, half whispering and half shouting. Before I could answer, he dragged me by my arm to our house, almost running. He was wearing only his blue boxer shorts. It was around two in the morning.

Nooooo. Nobody scored. Sadness.

"Do you realize what time it is? How many times did father and I tell you not to roam the streets again at night! You ruined my sleep! When father gets home, you'll get a good whack in your butt!" My arm ached from his grip.

I'm getting sleepy. This is how I plan to start my story for our INSTORY class. What do you think? Effective? Interesting? Boring? Scrap it?

Catch you later. Don't be full of yourself.

2006 FIFA World Cup

2006-06-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

I didn't even know the meaning of FIFA until now that I decided to research about it. Fédération Internationale de Football Association. Whew. Started in Paris on May 21, 1904. England won the first Olympic Football tournament in London, 1908. Then won it again in 1912. And I didn't even know that, until now. And I'm lovin' England more. Hehehe.

Blame it on Championship Manager. Ages ago (probably when I was 10 or 11 or 9 or 12), my older brother used to play this "game" wherein you manage football teams, Championship Manager. You didn't actually play the game, you manage the team. You trade players, renew their contracts, the works. It took him hours upon hours of playing that then stupid game. And then one day, I tried to play it. Of course at first I sucked, but I got the hang of it, and soon, I was the one playing hours upon hours of it.

And here I am. Waiting for the scores in Yahoo! Sports, "watching" the game every 2 minutes where the page updates on its own. Thank God I have someone I can talk about it (hehe hi Beni). Weh, England pa rin! =p

England won its first match against Paraguay. I'm now waiting for France's and Italy's and Brazil's matches. US of A is currently being totally beaten by Czech Republic. Haha!

Check out FIFA updates here.

The Write-Up

2006-06-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

Hear Ye! Hear Ye! Calling all high school and college friends. You are all invited to join the ultimate game show, The Write-Up!

All you have to do is write me up a write-up for our yearbook! Of course, it should describe me, in 80 words or less. I know right! 80 words?? Who could possibly describe me in 80 words or less?? That's total injustice. Hence, the challenge.

Winner gets his/her work written for our yearbook! Of course, credits and acknowledgements will be given to the winner. Plus a free movie pass to any movie you want ;)

You can submit your entries to: albert.sese@gmail.com

Deadline of entries will be on June 15, 2006, Thursday at 11:59PM. Late entries will not be accepted. This is serious! What are you laughing at?? Write now!

87

2006-06-07T10:26:00.000+08:00

Stole this from Naeomi. I think it's for LiveJournal users only, but what the heck.

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 80 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 168 movie titles on this list. Put your score in header and repost.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Grease
(1) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
(2) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
( ) My First Mister
( ) The Virgin Suicides
( ) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(3) Anger Management
(4) 50 First Dates
(5) The Princess Diaries
(6) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
(7) Scream
(8) Scream 2
(9) Scream 3
(10) Scary Movie
(11) Scary Movie 2
(12) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(13) American Pie
(14) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
(15) American Pie Band Camp
(16) Harry Potter
(17) Harry Potter 2
(18) Harry Potter 3
(19) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(20) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(21) The Village
( ) Lilo & Stitch
(22) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(23) Signs
( ) The Grinch
(24) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(25) White Chicks
(26) Butterfly Effect
(27) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots
( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(28) Along Came Polly
(29) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(30) Never Been Kissed
(31) Meet The Parents
(32) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(33) KING KONG
(34) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(35) Dumb & Dumber
(36) Dumber & Dumberer
(37) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
(38) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(39) Flubber
(40) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(41) Practical Magic
(42) Chicago
(43) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(44) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
(45) The Day After Tomorrow
(46) Child's Play
(47) Seed of Chucky
(48) Bride of Chucky
(49) Ten Things I Hate About You
(50) Just Married
(51) Gothika
(52) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
(53) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
(54) Ocean's Eleven
(55) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(56) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(57) Ice Age
( ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(58) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(59) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
(60) My Boss' Daughter
(61) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) War of the Worlds
(62) Rush Hour
(63) Rush Hour 2
( ) Best Bet
(64) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(65) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(66) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(67) The Terminator
(68) Terminator 2
(69) X-Men
(70) X2
(71) Spider-Man
(72) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(73) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(74) Catch Me If You Can
(75) The Others
(76) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(77) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) Cruel Intentions 3
(78) The Hot Chick
(79) Shrek
(80) Shrek 2
(81) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
(82) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(83) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(84) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(85) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(86) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(87) The 40-year-old-virgin

This is not even updated, there's no X3 for chrissake. Naeomi is more loserer than me =p (according to the guy who made this, bah).

Mall of Asia Experience

2006-06-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

At last, I've finally been to THE (supposedly) largest mall in asia, SM Mall of Asia.

It all started when our GAMEDES class ended. So we went down to the lobby, and Rommel told us that Allan was coming to school to visit. So we chatted for a while, and then Allan came, and chatted some more, like an hour. And all the while, we were also deciding where to eat or what to do. Jamie suggested that we go to Mall of Asia. And we were all kinda in the mood for it, so okay. I thought we were gonna commute, which was okay with me (like duh, I've been commuting for half of my life), but it turns out that Allan brought a car (coolness). Hehehehe. So he drove us there.

And then, we were again thinking for an answer to the eternal question. On the contrary to what people know, "What is love? What is life?" is not the eternal question of the millenium. Surprisingly, after polling 6 billion people in the world, the eternal question is, "San tayo kakain?"

Forever yan. Hindi iikot ang mundo pag hindi yan nasagot. Hehehe.

Anyway, the first thing that we thought of was Food Court (we kept on looking at those mall maps), but it was terribly jam-packed, so we walked around some more. We walked for almost an hour, because every fast food or resto was full (it was around 2PM, and they're still full). And the other stores were still closed. I think it was around 3 when we got to this place, Juanbambu (or something, I forgot). It's an asian fast food-slash-resto. Every food they served was new to me, and you know me, the experimental-slash-liberal when it comes to food. I ordered Hainanese Chicken something. Actually, almost all of us ordered that, except for Sue (they were James, Rommel, Jamie, and Allan). Gaya-gaya sila sa akin. Hehehe.

The presentation of the food was mind-blowing. Like you're eating in a five-star hotel or something. Really. They had all this garnishings, plus the rice was in three little cute cups with more garnishings on top. And they had two different types of "sawsawan," one was ginger, and the other was spicy salsa-ish thingy (ugh that sounded really conio, but please do inform me if you know the English of sawsawan).

However, the serving size was-- average. It's definitely not fit for someone who is very hungry, and believe me, we were VERY hungry. But the food's great still.

Then we walked some more, and then we came across this popsicle store. Hehehe. Some of us ordered (Jamie grapes, Sue strawberry, Mel and Me chocolate). It was cheap, but small too. It was okay, after eating that spicy thing.

And walked and walked and walked. And we haven't even walked a quarter of the mall. It's that big. Really. It had a super super super very very great view of the bay or ocean or whatever. It was very windy and cool outside. Really refreshing actually. Almost as if you're on a beach. You can actually smell the salt water. It's not that bad. Smells like a beach. Haha. You know what I mean.

And then we kinda got tired so decided to go home. And so we did.

And that's my first trip to Mall of Asia. I'm sounding like a kid telling a story for show and tell. Hehehe.

In another news--

Kim won the Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition, followed by Mikee (ugh), then Gerald, and finally Clare. Yeah, I was already expecting that Kim will win (and praying very very hard that Mikee won't). Wala lang, just wanted to share. Hehe.

Ho well. It's 1AM and I'm feeling tired and sleepy. So I'm gonna go now. Later.

X-Men Fever

2006-06-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

--apparently hasn't left me. I'm still searching for stuffs, pictures, video clips, trailers, anything. And Jamie suggested another X-Men paraphernalia. Comics. But I haven't started searching yet actually. But I will.

*SPOILER UP AHEAD!*

Damn. We weren't able to watch that final scene after the credits. But Jamie and Jed have already seen it, so I searched for it in YouTube. And there it was. I finally saw it. 18 seconds worth of hope for people like me who are praying the novena for a miracle: to have another X-Men movie.

I quote this guy from IMDB--

"I don't know why people are knocking this movie, it's pretty good. Especially on the improvements for Storm, they did a very good job on that. The way Juggernaut was kicking Wolverines butt in the Grey household... I have come to the conclusion that the people who are putting this movie down are bozos, plain and simple." - bishop42962

Yeah, I second that. I don't know why people are knocking this movie. The problem with people is, they expect too much. And forget to enjoy what's there. Why don't you try directing and acting those things then? People mocking it, sounding as if it's easy. Hmph!

If I had a million bucks with me, I'd spend half of it watching The Last Stand over and over again.

Gambit was supposed to be in the film, but the guy they wanted to act the role turned it down, so they removed his role in the movie. I'm reading other people's comments about the movie. There's this thread that says Cyclops might still be alive. Then there was this guy that said, if Cyclops was still alive, and so was Professor X, and the cure doesn't really work permanently, then the X3 Movie was "a waste of time," because they ended up as though nothing happened. I have to agree with him though, partly. But there will be changes. I don't think they can bring back Jean Grey. We have new characters (Angel, Kitty, Beast) and possible more new characters (Gambit, Jubilee [she appeared in the credits, but none of my friends remember her in the movie], Apocalypse [people's speculation]).

Sigh, whatever. I love X-Men. I love the movies.

Bigotry

2006-05-31T10:49:00.000+08:00

I first came about with this word during high school. I was writing a reaction paper for our oh so great English teacher in fourth year. I typed in "prejudice," right-clicked it, and moved the mouse cursor to "Synonyms," and there it was, along with other strong words such as discrimination, narrow-mindedness, and injustice.

I woke up early today, considering that I slept at around 3AM. So I mechanically opened the computer and hooked myself to the net. Then blog-hopped. And once again, for God-knows-how-many times, I despised the way people tend to be narrow-minded, or worse, close-minded.

I have this theory, you see. People are naturally biased. They just can't help it. It takes will power, real will power, to be fair, to be just. Let's take me for an example. I love Pokemon. I just love it. And if someone says something bad about it, my natural reaction would be to defend it. I wouldn't even bother think about what he said, because I love Pokemon. Why should I listen to someone who doesn't even understand it right, hence he said that bad bad thing.

This is a sub-theory of the theory above: If a person loves something/someone, his mind is closed about it, operative words being loves and closed. Period. You just can't change his mind. So why bother right? If a person changes his mind about something, then he really didn't love it, even if he claims he did. Or maybe, not strongly loved it. You know what I mean.

It's sad, actually, that there are people like this. I admit that I am close(d)-minded at times, but only about shallow things, like Pokemon, Ragnarok, X-Men, etcetera.

Yesternight, I was chatting with a high school friend, and then he asked me, "How's school? Made new friends?" (Hahaha, sounds like a parent) Anyway, it actually got me thinking. And I answered him, "Lost old friends is more like it." Sadness. Yeah, we were both sad (were you?) and I said I really didn't want to talk about it. But I'm gonna talk about it now, because I have to.

I don't think I really lost-lose them, you know. But it wasn't like before. I'm not only pertaining to one friend, not even two. A lot, actually, and it really is sad. Is this supposed to be part of growing up, of maturity? Whatever happened to those spontaneous days where we watch a movie, or eat out, or stay at Starbucks till they close. Whatever happened to those days where we actually had fun.

Maybe it's because we're all busy. Or maybe because we're all taking thesis now (hence, busy). Or maybe because they have more important things to do (hence, busy). Or maybe, just maybe, we've grown apart. It's sad, but true. People change. I used to believe that people can't change overnight. But apparently, they can. Another theory. Sort of like what I read in Archie Comics: "Pictures don't lie, people do." That sounds irrelevant, but actually it is. Free will. Ironic that it's called free will. Think about it.

Before I forget, Belated Happy Birthday Angelaide!! We used to call each other "bespren." Hehehe. High school was so much fun and much more simple than college. Whoever invented college degrees probably didn't have friends in high school. Yes, that's another theory of mine.

Life is about growing up, not growing apart.

Just a theory.

When You're Looking Like That

2006-05-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

Westlife

She's a 5 foot 10 in catsuit and bambi eyes
Everybody's who's staring wouldn't believe that this girl was mine
I should have know I was wrong
When I left her for a life in pity
But they say you never miss the water until it's gone

Guess I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight

How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that
I can't believe what I just gave away
Now I can't take it back
I don't wanna get lost
I don't wanna live my life without you
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that

She's all dressed up for glamour and rock and roll
Wanna squeeze her real tight get out of this place
If only I could take control

But she's out of my reach forever
And just a week ago she lied next to me
It's so ironic how I had to lose just
To see that I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight

How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that
I can't believe what I just gave away
Now I can't take it back
I don't wanna get lost
I don't wanna live my life without you
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that

I don't wanna forget you
I don't even wanna try
How am I supposed to walk on by when you're looking like that

How am I supposed to leave you
I can't believe what I just gave away (oh no babe)
Cause I can't take it back (I'm lost)
I don't wanna live my life (live my life) without you
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that

How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that
I can't believe what I just gave away
Now I can't take it back
I don't wanna get lost
I don't wanna live my life with out you
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that
(x2)

It's So Nice To Be Happy!

2006-05-26T12:27:00.000+08:00

Wahaha!! Yesterday is a glorious day. The happiest of the term, I tell you. Of course, it's too early to tell, as it is only the first week of classes of the term. But who cares. I was happy.

Grabe. I can't express it any better. And I can't tell why either. Hehe. Kasalanan ni Jamie!!! Pinaalala pa kasi si Six, ayan tuloy, bumalik sa buhay ko! Mwahaha!!

And yesterday, I was able to find the classic X-Men Animated Series as well! And that really made my day. I'm still downloading them. God, I didn't know they reached up to five seasons, each having at least 13 episodes. And I've only downloaded 9, each sizing up to about 40MB. Gahd. Goodluck to our hard drive.

Hahaha, I can't get over my happy happy day.

The Last Stand (At Last)

2006-05-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!! I finally got to watch X3! And the wait was worth it. At least for me. I don't think my friends enjoyed it that much. But being the X-Men fanatic that I am, I am very pleased with the movie.

It's impossible for me to say other things about the movie without spoiling it for the pathetic people who haven't watched it yet (hehehe), so being the good samaritan that I am, I won't speak any further. It's a great movie, period.

Now that we're on the subject of X-Men, does anybody know where I can download the old X-Men cartoons? If you do, leave a comment. Thanks!

All other things that happened today, are irrelevant. At least not anymore.

Goodbye.

The Last Stand

2006-05-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

In a few more hours, I can finally watch X3: The Last Stand! Oh God, I can't wait. I just hope that the wait is worth the while, just like in Just Like Heaven.

First day of school-- was a drab. Imagine. My first class is on 8AM, and my next class is-- 4PM! What the! What kind of nitwit would pick a schedule like that?? Oh right, I made my schedule. But what can I do?? The other blocks were full already. Dammit.

And our LITERA1 prof-- Oh, I love him alright, but definitely not his syllabus. He's so okay, personality speaking. But damn, you should see the course requirements. Poetry recital?? Who in their right minds would do that, not to mention in front of people I barely know?? I don't think I can handle that. The play part, I can deal with. And I thought that the impromptu speech I did last term was nerve-wrecking. His syllabus is the fastest way to fail thesis. Too bad. He really seems to be a great prof. A great sense of humor, great English speaking skills (well, he better have. He's a doctorate degree holder), in short, a perfect English teacher. But screw the requirements.

Looks like we're dropping his class. Maybe. Maybe not. Who knows. We'll know tomorrow.

Oooohhhh... I can't wait for X3. Oh no, I'm sleeping past my bedtime. I'm conditioning my biological clock for me to sleep at 10PM and wake up at 6AM everyday, to accomodate my Tuesday-Thursday schedule... Sigh... I fell asleep on the bus, and went beyond my drop off point. Go figure.

Summer's Over

2006-05-20T01:51:00.000+08:00

*SPOILER ALERTS! Don't read further if you haven't watched The Da Vinci Code!*

At least for me (read: title). Oh man, classes are looming over the horizon, I can't take it.

However, I am glad to announce that my apparent loser status in movies has finally ended. I have watched one of the year's most awaited films, and one of the most controversial, (but not as controversial as Brokeback Mountain), The Da Vinci Code.

I was prepared for this one. I didn't expect one bit from the movie. Or maybe my long term memory loss of what happened in the novel got hold of me.

Unlike most novel-turned-movies, The Da Vinci Code (movie) was faithful. All (at least from my perspective) major events were portrayed, and very well at that. Tom Hanks did not disappoint. Nor did Audrey Tautou (errr I don't know if I got her surname right, I'm too lazy to search for it). Paul Bettany was exquisite. Ian McKellen had Magneto tendencies, but I guess that's his real personality which he can't control. Nonetheless, he was good too.

I am afraid for those people who haven't read the novel yet. I'm sure that they will be shocked by what they will see, and hear. Indeed, as what TV shows and newspapers say, this is a test of faith for everyone. Everyone who'll watch it. As for me-- What is faith? It's nothing but a belief, just like people's belief in religion, or God, or love. I hate to say what the existentialist in me is saying, but we believe what we choose to believe. I don't believe in God because I've been brought up as a Catholic. I believe in God because I choose to. I believe in love, because I choose to. And from this point onwards (after watching the movie), choose. Choose what you want to believe in.

The movie's great, believe me. Not that great in special effects, but in everything. The people who want to ban it are blinded. They're afraid of having their faith tested, maybe because they know they'll fail, miserably. Boohoo, whore!

My movie critic-ing powers are rusty, so sue me. Next stop, X3: The Last Stand. Can't wait.

On another note...

I've been sleeping late lately, too late in fact, that around 4AM, I'm still awake, and listening on my phone's radio. And the funny thing is, when I was listening to one station, they said something about texting to greet, blah blah. So being bored that I was, I texted my greeting. And lo! After about 20 minutes, I heard my greeting! Haha! How cool is that. Okay, so maybe it isn't that cool. But cool nonetheless. Haha, I'm weird. And the next morning (yeah, I was up again at 4AM the next day), I texted another greeting, and I heard it again! Hahaha!

And I have a major biological clock problem, which is apparent. And classes start on Monday! Well, Tuesday actually for me, but we have a thesis meeting on Monday. *sigh* It's the end of my vacation. On the bright side, I only have one term left, and it's off to the real world for me! Woohoo!! Can't wait to get a job.

Put them all together, and voila!

Narda

2006-05-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

by Kamikazee

Tila umibon kung lumipad
Sumabay sa hanging ako'y napatingin
Sa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga

Mapapansin kaya
Sa dami ng yong ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat
May pag-asa bang makilala ka?

Awit na nanawagan
Baka sakali napakikinggan
Pag-ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala kahit sulyap lang Darna

Ang swerte nga naman ni Ding
Lagi ka niyang kapiling
Kung ako sa kanya
Niligawan na kita

Mapapansin kaya
Sa dami ng yong ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat
May pag-asa bang makilala ka?

Awit na nanawagan
Baka sakali napakikinggan
Pag-ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala kahit sulyap lang Darna

Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin
Para lang iyong sagipin
Ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka

Darating kaya
Sa dami ng ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko sila
Paano na kaya

Awit na nanawagan
Baka sakali napakikinggan
Pag-ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala kahit sulyap lang Darna

Nag-aabang sa langit
Sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala kahit sulyap lang Darna

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Ikaw Lamang

2006-05-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

Ikaw ang pangakong
Taglay ng isang bituin
Tanging pangarap sa Diyos ay hiling
Makapiling sa bawat sandali

Ikaw ang pag-ibig sa araw at gabi
Ikaw ang pag-asang
Tanglaw sa dilim
Napapawing hirap at pighati

Langit ang buhay sa tuwing ika'y hahagkan
Anong ligaya sa tuwing ika'y mamasdan
Sa piling mo ang gabi'y tila araw
Ikaw ang pangarap
Ikaw lamang

Ikaw ang pag-ibig sa araw at gabi
Ikaw ang pag-asang
Tanglaw sa dilim
Napapawing hirap at pighati

Langit ang buhay sa tuwing ika'y hahagkan
Anong ligaya sa tuwing ika'y mamasdan
Sa piling mo ang gabi'y tila araw
Ikaw ang pangarap
Ikaw lamang

Langit ang buhay sa tuwing ika'y hahagkan
Anong ligaya sa tuwing ika'y mamasdan
Sa piling mo ang gabi'y tila araw
Ikaw ang pangarap
Ikaw ang pangarap
Ikaw ang pangarap
Ikaw lamang

Reminiscing Part Two

2006-05-08T13:43:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm back. My brother stole the pc from me yesterday.

Anyway, I thought that that meeting with high school friends was the highlight of the week. It turns out that it's not, and better things were looming for me on the horizon (whatever).

Friday morning. As in wee hour in the morning, 5AM to be exact, was the time I slept. You can just imagine what time I would wake up. But my sleep was disturbed by my sister, at around 11AM. Turns out that another high school friend, Kareeza, was calling me. But I was so goddam sleepy that I told my sister to tell Kare that I wouldn't wake up. Hehehe. And I turned off my phone because she kept on calling me. Hihihi, evil me. I woke up at 2PM.

And then my sister told me the shocking news. Highschool berks were going to Tagaytay, with me of course. And I was like, "What?? Tagaytay?? They didn't tell me about it!!" (Of course, in Filipino, hehehe) And that's when I turned on my phone. There were two messages, one from Kare and one from Sed, all saying that we're going to Tagaytay. And then I texted Kare and all that. To cut it short, I took a bath, when I finished, they were already here, and then we left.

Oh god, I couldn't believe it. Kare was driving, Yana was coaching Kare, Egay, Sed, Julius and I were going to Tagaytay. I couldn't believe it, even when we got there. I was soooo happy. I missed these guys so much. Too bad Morts couldn't come with us because she had an exam, and I thought I'll never see her again, but I was wrong, but that's for later. Hehehe.

So we stayed at Starbucks, took a gazillion pictures, and since I hadn't eaten lunch yet (it was 5PM at that time), we ate at Yellow Cab. And took another gazillion pictures. Hehehe. Of course, we were all telling stories in between everything else. Gahd I missed them so much. It's a good thing they picked me up. And that's when I thought of sleeping over at anybody's place. Everyone was game. Unfortunately, not everyone's moms.

Julius' mom was actually celebrating her birthday that day, so that means he can't. Sed and Egay's Mom's didn't allow them, which leaves me, Kare and Yana. Then I thought of Morts! We called her up and she was okay with it. So we left Tagaytay, dear Tagaytay. (Up to this point, I still couldn't believe everything).

We dropped Julius off, then Egay, then picked up Morts. Then went to Baywalk (Kare hasn't visited Baywalk ever), we stayed for like 10 minutes (hehehe), then dropped Sed off. It was great to see Morts again. Last time I saw her (and everybody else) was when we watched Goblet of Fire, and that's like November or December last year. We stayed at Kare and Yana's condo near Ateneo. They taught me how to play Mahjong and Poker (I forgot which variation... Sounded like Hold Em', I dunno). We used the Mahjong pieces as chips. Hehehe. Of course, we were drinking. Errrr what was our codename for it back in high school... That chemical they used for a science project... It starts with a letter "C." Bah, I can't remember.. Anyway, we drank gin orange shakes. Hehehe. Yeah, shake. It was cool, literally and figuratively. But we didn't get drunk. We weren't able to use up that small bottle.

Kare was tired from driving so she slept first, then Yana followed, so it was Morts and me talking all night, and all day, as it was already 6AM and we were still talking. Hehe. Oooohhh I so much missed this gal. We talked about everything. Almost. Mostly high school stuffs. I told her about my love life (if you can call it that), which is only fair since she told hers, and for not sleeping. Hehehe.

At around 7, we got hungry so we ate at McDonald's then went to Ateneo. Kare toured me and Karen around, then we drove off to UP Diliman and drove around. Morts and I were pretty sleepy, so we went back to Ateneo because we were planning on going to Kare's home in Manila to sleep, but Yana had other stuffs to do, so we left her, got back to the condo to get stuffs, and went home.

Karen and I slept. When I woke up, I was alone in the room. I thought they both left me. Hehe. Karen was downstairs watching TV and Kare was nowhere to be seen. We decided to leave since Karen still had a meeting. That was pretty much it.

We're planning on repeating this this coming Friday or Saturday. It was soooo fun. I really really enjoyed it. Definitely a big big big break from staying home all day.

Happy Birthday Jevi!! I might go to Manila so you can treat me out, Government maybe. Hehe kidding.

Reminiscing

2006-05-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Oh gohd, this past week was the bestest week of my summer, or at least, so far.

Last Monday, May 1, was a Starbucks day, so I invited my sister to go to Starbucks with me to use that coupon. And then I saw a highschool friend, Julius, there too. But we didn't talk much since he was going home and I was with my sister. Okay, this isn't really the highlight.

The next day, they (Julius, Danica, Lorette, all highschool friends) invited me to come with them and go to Lorette's place, you know, to catch up on stuffs and stuffs. Hehe. I got there at around 6PM, and then we chatted and played cards. Oh believe me, this is a big break from my monotonous summer vacay. And it's been a long time since I last played Trump Suit (or however it's spelled). It was fun. We also watched She's The Man (I wasn't able to watch it in the moviehouse due to my hectic sched last term). It was a great movie, though predictable. Or maybe it's my psychic powers. Hehehe. Julius had to leave at around 11 because he had to do something at home, so he went. And then we watched Hostel.

Oh crap, it's the creepiest, most sick movie I've ever watched. Believe me. And I had a fair share of creepy, sick movies (Texas Chainsaw Massacre, The House of Wax, etc.) It was so sick, I had headache. Seriously. It was THAT disgusting and gross and-- sick. No other word can explain it. Just plain sick. I wouldn't forget this movie, and the headache I had.

It's a good thing Lorette decided, or rather, insisted on watching The Replacements after. And it's a good thing that we did, because I somehow forgot about Hostel, but not entirely. Kana is forever going to haunt our lives. Anyway, The Replacements was okay I guess. I think I've seen it in HBO years ago. It was good actually. But I'm not in the mood to do an in-depth analysis of it, so bear with "It was good" for the meantime.

Errr I have to go. I'll continue this tomorrow.

Dark Days for Philippine Democracy

2006-04-28T03:11:00.000+08:00

Wow. This article is so powerful, it made me copy-paste it here.

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From the New York Times Editorial:

"Dark Days for Philippine Democracy"
Published: April 5, 2006

Filipinos thought they had put an end to electoral chicanery and governmental intimidation when they overthrew the Marcos dictatorship two decades ago. Unfortunately, President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo has completely lost touch with the ideals that inspired that 1986 "people power" movement.

Mrs. Arroyo is no Ferdinand Marcos, at least not yet. But this onetime reformer is reviving bad memories of crony corruption, presidential vote-rigging and intimidation of critical journalists. Unless the Philippine Congress and courts find ways to rein in her increasingly authoritarian tendencies, democracy itself may be in danger.

This was not the outcome people expected five years ago when Mrs. Arroyo, then the vice president, was swept into power on a wave of popular discontent with her discredited predecessor, Joseph Estrada. In those days, Mrs. Arroyo, a professional economist, was seen as an earnest reformer. She won further credit by pledging not to run for a new six-year term in 2004.

But then she changed her mind, and her style of government as well. Her narrow re-election victory became tainted after a tape revealed her discussing her vote totals with an election commissioner while ballots were still being counted. She survived an impeachment attempt over that incident. But she was forced to send her husband into exile over charges that he took bribes from gambling syndicates.

Earlier this year she briefly declared a state of emergency in response to allegations of a coup threat that others disputed. Since then she has been intensifying pressure on a wide range of political critics and especially on the press. Government officials have warned news outlets that they will be held to restrictive new guidelines, the justice secretary talks darkly about a journalistic watch list, and the staff members of a well-known center for investigative journalism have been threatened with sedition charges. No Philippine government has made such efforts to muzzle the press since the Marcos era.

President Bush has repeatedly hailed Mrs. Arroyo as an important ally against international terrorism. He now needs to warn her that by undermining a hard-won democracy, she is making her country far more vulnerable to terrorist pressures.

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It's sad, that our leaders are like this. On a lighter note...

Who wants to watch When A Stranger Calls?? Or any movie for that matter... Raise your hands!!

Crap

2006-04-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

Dammit. I was already asleep, and I woke up-- and now I can't go back to sleep-- yet.

Hmmm... I suddenly forgot what I was going to blog about. Harhar. I'll get back to you.

The Sweetest Thing

2006-04-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

Earlier, I watched the movie The Sweetest Thing, starring Cameron Diaz, Christina Applegate and Selma Blair. There was this book they were reading, something about the Ten Commandments of Love. And then there was the ninth commandment. Thou shalt love what's possible.

And it hit me hard. Right on the dot. Kaboom! Thou shall love what's possible.

And then I remembered this text message. It's in Filipino, but roughly translated, the gist (thanks Sed) of the message was-- on second thought, I'll write it in original context. Hehehe. I don't wanna waste precious brain cells on translating this.

"Nakailang iyak na ba tayo sa taong mahal natin? Siguro hindi na natin mabilang! Pero sa bawat tulo ng luha, natututo ba tayo? Bobo kasi tayo pag na-i-in-love. Minamahal natin yun pang taong di tayo kaya mahalin."

There. I think I posted this one months back. The one with many text messages. Anyway, there. Love what's possible ONLY. I will now rot in hell for ignoring this commandment.

I have a secret blog.

Awww

2006-04-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

But I'm really feeling cheesy now, so I'll just post some lines from songs I like.

"I love you... I loved you all along..." - Far Away, Nickelback

"Dahil sa isang taong mahal mo, ng buong puso, lahat ay gagawin..." - Makita Kang Muli, Sugarfree

"Still I see tears from your eyes... Maybe I'm just not the one for you..." - Broken Sonnet, Hale

"And I see you fogging up the mirror, vapor round your body glistens in the shower, and I wanna stay right here..." - Blinded, Third Eye Blind

"You were everything everything that I wanted..." - My Happy Ending, Avril Lavigne

"This time... All I want is you... There is no one else... Who can take your place..." - Take Me Away, Lifehouse

"And I don't know why... I can't keep my eyes off of you..." - You and Me, Lifehouse

"Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw ng damdamin..." - Sa Kanya, MYMP

"Cause you're everywhere to me... And when I close my eyes it's you I see..." - Everywhere, Michelle Branch

*sigh* Where fort art thou? Hehehehe.
t
It's over now, JV. They're all in.

L

2006-04-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

I was about to blog something cheesy, and then sanity hit me back.

So instead of writing here, I'll write somewhere else. Heehee.

l

Summer's Here

2006-04-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

After tinkering with LiveJournal for 30 minutes, I decided not to move. Hehehe.

Man, every page of it is screaming, "I am not user-friendly!!" Or maybe I'm just really not patient and-- well, not patient.

And those ads, ugh. I didn't even bother figuring out how to remove those. Well, it is cool that LJ's like a Friendster thing where you can connect with your friends and all, but man, a great user-interface is of the essence. How about those people who are illiterate in HTML and wants to just type entries (like me)? Hehehe.

Anyway, on another note, it's been a week since the term was over, and I haven't done anything substantial, or at least blog-worthy. It's as monotonous as going to school everyday. And it's freakin' hot. My days are all the same. Wake up, open the computer, play, open the tv, watch a movie, play some more, sleep, eat, eat, eat, eat. Heck. I really could use that vacation S22 peeps are planning. But I'm having second thoughts.

Riddle: How do you see something that's invisible, at least on the computer?
CTRL+A
Ha! The answer's right up there, and you can't even see it. Hehehe.

Ho-hum. Gonna eat lunch first. Later.

o

Happy And Pissed

2006-04-11T14:10:00.000+08:00

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I got a 3.0 in ADVANSE!! Wahahahaha!! I really didn't expect that. I was expecting a 1.0 or worse, another 0.0. But noooo, I passed, and even got a 3.0!! Wahahaha!! Thanks to Jeff, our group leader, for we got a high grade in the project because of him. And damn, I made a career out of that finals exam. Hahahaha.

I am pissed about CRYPTOG however. But let's leave it at that. And he didn't sign my course card, so I'll have it signed probably tomorrow.

At least I won't be worrying about my scholarships anymore. Oh wait, I still have MOBICOM tomorrow, and NETWORK on Monday. I'm not that confident in these subjects, despite the high first two exams I got in NETWORK. ENGLTRI and THSST-2 I'm pretty confident. Hehehe. I got 3.1 in my impromptu speech, 3.25 (I think) in panel, and 3.6 in lecture. Harhar! That boring lecture speech of mine. So I'm expecting AT LEAST a 3.0 in ENGLTRI. God is good this term. And our thesis adviser told us that we're already 4.0 in thesis, so there. Gawd, I sound like a GC.

Damn. It's so hot. I could take a bath thrice in a day. I can't wait for this term to be formally over.

b

Taking A Break

2006-04-05T01:28:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I'm studying.

But I'm on a break right now, otherwise I would've gone mad. Nothing, just wanted to divert my attention to other things.

Today was really frustrating and irritating, but I'd rather blog about it on another day, since I have an exam later.

100 miles on the highway to oblivion. *sigh*

I'm sleepyyyyyy.

y

Une Deux Trois

2006-04-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

I miss French. Hence the title.

Anyway, I really can't think of an appropriate title, so there.
Damn, and yet again, you were cute today.
Harhar. I should be doing the ENGLTRI critique papers now, but as usual, I'm lazy. The term's almost over... Just one reporting, one MP, one problem set, two more critique papers, and two final exams, and it's over. I hope so.

If you saw it, then you should do it in the whole page.

Haha. Got a little riddle up there for you guys.

Anyway, I'm just confusing you guys. I went home with a friend today, and let's hide him in the name of B. He told me a story, and I was shocked actually, that I didn't know about it. And then he starts blaming me for why I don't know about it, ranting on about how I spend most of my time with other friends and all.

And it actually-- irritated me. And pissed me off to be blunt about it. Not at the person, but at the comment, or whatever you call it. I hate it when people say that to me. I mean, come on, what did you expect? For me to spend 24/7 with you guys, tailing you wherever you go and all? Do I say the same to you when you spend time with other friends? No.

So please.

Not to sound like a Mr. Congeniality and all, but I have more friends aside from you guys you know. I wish I could duplicate, or even triplicate myself so I can spend my free time with all of you. But that's all it is, a wish.

Okay, change topic. It's already hot here, and I don't want my blood to reach boiling point.

Funny, how people can't see things, when it's right in front of them.

To tell or not to tell, that is the question.

e

On A High

2006-03-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

I'm so bangag. (albert you're so conio -jamie)

In case you're wondering, we're at the computer lab right now, in a class. I haven't had much sleep yet (5 hours I think) and I haven't eaten breakfast and lunch, and yes, I'm so bangag. Harhar.

We (thesismates minus Jhaphet) slept over at Jocs' house to do, what else, but our thesis. I don't know if we're going somewhere, but I'm going nowhere. Harhar. 100 miles per hour on the highway to oblivion. Yooonnnn!!

Harhar. Thanks to Jamie for that-- that up there.

l

Summer

2006-03-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

Our village picked the worst possible time to fix the village tanks.

It's super duper hot, I'm almost fried.

True friend count: 7

Hmmm... Let's see who else is true...

i

Erratum

2006-03-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

On second thought, I'm not writing anymore about the elections, since it's over anyway. And I'm getting super lazy. Hehehe.

Oh gawd, the term's almost over. And I haven't done anything substantial.

r

TAPAT Sweeps the Executive Board

2006-03-20T10:59:00.000+08:00

I have been silent for the longest time, but this is going to be a short entry.

For the 7th time in De La Salle University's Student Council History, and twice in a row, Alyansang Tapat sa Lasallista sweeps the Executive Board, producing it's 17th Student Council President, Simoun Ferrer.

My congratulations to all Tapat Leaders who won.

I'm on my way to class now, so like what I said, this will be short. But expect a very long entry when I get back. Behind the scenes of the 2006 DLSU Student Council General Elections. Prepare for the TRUTH.

Count Yourselves In!

2006-03-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

http://countmein2006.blogspot.com

Far Away

2006-03-02T19:41:00.000+08:00

by Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believing hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep Breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believing hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep Breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep Breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Tired

2006-03-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, was very tiring. Despite the four-day weekend, all my energies were used up. I walked/ran from Gox, to Central, to Yuchengco 6th floor (of course I used the elevator, but still), back to Gox, to Central, to Yuch, back to Gox... You get the picture.

Hence, I didn't go to school yesterday (it's Thursday now). My legs and arms were screaming in pain. And I woke up with my right arm numb. As in numb, as if all the blood and nerves disappeared. But I was so sleepy and tired, that I just straightened it and went back to sleep. I didn't even feel scared that my arm might be "dead."

Student Council General Elections. Sigh. Let's all hope and pray that this year's elections will be clean and honest, as it's supposed to be that way.

On a lighter note, gawd, I love Keanna Reeves!! Woohoo!! Go Keanna!! Svetti and I were talking about her a while ago, and she sent me this mail about "Keanna Quotes." Here they are:

The Wisdom of Keanna:

Keanna: "Di ko alam na pinag-uusapan ako kasi ba't naman ako nila paguusapan? Di ko naman bertdey"
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Keanna: "Andami kong pimples wala kasing moisturizer eh"
Rico: "Ano?"
Keanna: "Bakukang.. Andami kong bakukang (pertaining to her pimples)"
Rico: "Anong bakukang?"
Keanna: "Insekto.. (tapos sabay hipo sa mukha niya)"
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Keanna: "Buti na lang pinaligo na tayo, akala ko kasi sa Sabado pa puwedeng maligo. Paano kaya sila matutulog non?"
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Keanna to Koya: (About not taking bath) Pakiramdam ko po kasi hindi na ako FRESH.
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Keanna: "Rustrum!!"
Roxie: "Rustom hindi Rustrum!"
Keanna: *deadma mode* "Pakealam mo? Mayaman ako sa letter R!
__________________________________________________
Keanna: (habang nagwawalis) "Hindi ako makatulog na madumi ang bahay kasi. Tapos mahilig pa kayong magkape. Gusto ko tuloy kayong paluin"
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Keanna: Ang hirap kaya mag-dishwasher
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Keanna ay nagpa-fashion show sa harap ng mga housemates habang nagpo-pose:
Keanna - "Dapat pala ay mag-pouch ako"
Housemates - "Pout hindi pouch (tapos halakhakan)"
Keanna - "Eh ano yung pouch past tense"
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RULE: Bawal galawin ang furnitures ng wala akong pahintulot
Keanna: "Edi bawal pala gamitin yung rocking chair? kasi gagalaw yun"
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Keanna: (from the rule book) "Si big bra.. brother ang magbibigay sa inyo ng mga kakailanganing gamit...(thinks)... e bat di natin makita ung kamay ni
big bradir eh sya pla magbibigay( sbay twa sila..)"
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ZANJOE: "Yung kapatid ko ZANDRO..."
KEANNA: "Lahat kayo start sa 'S'??"
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Keanna: "Ay naku wala na pag-asa tayo mag-modern times. Ito pa din ang toothbrush... Talagang back to BISIKS tayo"

Oh gawd. I love that bakukang and pouch thing!

Text BB KEANNA send to 2331!!

I Love This Day

2006-02-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

Dear Albert,

Congratulations, you passed the initial screening and you are one of the short listed applicants for a potential SMART IT career. Please expect a call in the next few weeks from our recruitment officer for further instructions.

Thank you for participating and exploring possible job opportunities with SMART through the IT Summit.

Start your career with us and make that SMART move.

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Yeah, it's the end of another school week. Gawd, the days are passing by at the speed of light. So many things, great things, happened today. One of which is above. A great way to end my day. The others, harhar! Too great to be mentioned here. SMART, here I come!

Confused

2006-02-17T02:10:00.000+08:00

I am so confused right now. I don't know who's who anymore.

Anyway, I had my impromptu speech in ENGLTRI earlier, and I sucked. I totally messed it up. I stuttered a lot, and I totally had mental black-outs. Crap. I was so glad that the topic chosen was the topic that I wanted to talk about (Brokeback Mountain), but even that wasn't enough to bring me to my speech mode. I hate impromptu speech, so much.

Gawd, I am so sleep deprived. I need to hibernate.

Sent my letter to the Editor. Can't wait for the reply.

I Wish I Knew How To Quit You

2006-02-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

That's probably the best line in this year's most celebrated, most talked about, and most controversial movie of the year, Brokeback Mountain.

We (Jevi, Svetti, et al) have been waiting for this movie since November of last year I think. The producers (or whoever) decided to postpone the showing so that it will be included in the Oscar's. Well, even if it kept us waiting forever, it was a smart move, as this movie is now a frontrunner in the Oscar's. With good reasons.

We watched its premiere night, sponsored by Cinemanila, yesterday at Robinson's Galeria. I had to ask my friends how to get there, as my geographic prowess is only limited to Las Piñas and Manila. To cut it short, I got there, in one piece. And I got there alone. Jevi and Svetti still had classes, so I decided to go ahead of them.

Before I begin my point of view on the movie, let me tell you that this movie is not for the faint of heart, nor for conservative, close-minded ignorants. Face it people, it's year 2006.

So most of you probably know why this movie is very controversial. It's because this movie is about two guys, falling for each other. Now, I don't know if it was really love or not. They didn't say "I love you" to each other. They just, kinda grew on each other, if you know what I mean. And take note, the setting was 1963. Homosexuality wasn't really that-- "famous." They actually said in the movie, Heath and Jake, that they weren't queer. Well anyway, that pretty much is the twist in the story, and everything else revolved around it.

I was actually-- even if I hate to admit it-- disappointed. And it's probably because I was expecting a lot from the movie, and obviously, my expectations weren't met. But it was still great. There were actually a lot of shocking scenes (yeah, even I, with my liberated and open-minded thinking, was shocked). There were a lot of things that I didn't expect, which compensated for my expectations not being met, which, in turn, makes the movie great, at least for me. Hehehe.

I was pretty much prepared to cry my heart out, but no, there were no cry-able scenes. There were I-almost-cried scenes, but that was it. Now, you might be wondering, "Then what made the movie great?"

Okay, let's enumerate. One, the scenery. Gawd, the scenes were so breathtaking. Every scene was captured with it's natural beauty, the mountains, the lakes, everything. The production (in Jevi's terms) was awesome. Really 1960's.

Two, the background music. FYI, Brokeback Mountain won four Golden Globe awards, one of which is Best Original Sound, along with Best Dramatic Picture, Best Director, and Best Screenplay. And FYI, Brokeback Mountain has eight Oscar nominations (Best Picture, Achievement in Directing, Best Actor - Heath Ledger, Best Supporting Actor - Jake Gyllenhaal, Best Supporting Actress - Michelle Williams, Best Adapated Screenplay, Achievement in Cinematography, and Best Original Score). But I'm going off my point. Yeah, the sounds were terrific. The sounds pretty much said what the mood of each scene was. Very appropriate.

*POSSIBLE SPOILERS UP AHEAD. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK*

Three, the actors, Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal. I have one thing against Heath though. The way he spoke in the movie, damn, you'd need a subtitle to understand what he was saying. But it was part of his role, like what Jevi told us. Heath's character was a shy type of person, who never spoke much, and when he did speak, it was slurred, as if he did it on purpose so you wouldn't understand what he was saying. But they were both good actors. Damn, they have to be, after pulling off those kissing scenes so well. Yeah, they kissed a lot. Well, not really a lot, but it was a lot for two guys, if you know what I mean. Hahahaha! Especially that kiss when they meet after four years of not meeting each other, you could really tell that they were longing for each other. Everything else was great.

Four, the actresses, Anne Hathaway and Michelle Williams. Michelle performed better, probably because she had more lines. Both of them had breast exposures, which probably is the reason why the movie was rated R-18 (aside from the kissing scenes of Jake and Heath, and the other things they did together [I won't tell]). So yeah, Michelle was better, because she had more opportunity to show her feelings on the situation. Damn, when she saw Jake and Heath kissing, everyone in the movie house was like, "Oh my gawd." And how she acted after that scene, was superb. The way she cried when Heath left because he said that he and Jake were going fishing, your heart would really feel what Michelle was feeling, the way she acted. She definitely earned the Best Supporting Actress nomination in the Oscar's and the Golden Globe.

Five, the plot. Now, here's where the ultimate spoiler would be. All I knew about the movie was that Heath and Jake fell for each other, they got married to Michelle and Anne respectively, met after a few years, and still they felt something for each other. Nothing more. I really didn't expect that Jake would die. It all happened so fast, I didn't realize that it was going in that direction. Going back, if you ask me, I'd say that Jake wasn't really "straight" since the start of the movie. At their very first scene, Jake was checking Heath out. And he made all the first moves in the movie. But anyway, Jake-being-not-really-straight-since-the-start isn't the issue of the movie, and it's my own opinion anyway. The issue is, how they fell for each other, and why. Well, they were pretty much stranded in the mountains, if you don't count the hundreds of sheeps, some dogs and two horses that they've got as company. So they had no choice but to talk to each other.

It all started when Jake slept inside the tent, and Heath outside. Then Jake woke up in the middle of the night, hearing Heath's incoherent coughs. It was probably very, very cold outside, judging by Heath's acting. So he told Heath to go inside. What happened next is, I'm not saying. Haha!

I changed my mind. I don't want to tell the whole story (believe me, I was about to). I'm sure most of you wouldn't watch this movie, and I don't really care if you do or not. All I'm saying is, Brokeback Mountain is definitely a break from the norm. A great deviation from the usual, too-good-to-be-true love stories. I'm sure that this movie is also possible to happen iRL, just like the other movies. What separates Brokeback Mountain from the other movies, aside from the eight Oscar nominations (hehehe), is that it showed us a new, different, and yet real, life-shocking situation, as if you're hit head on with a truck. Brokeback Mountain is definitely on the top of my most favorite movies of all time, though it didn't beat Just Like Heaven in the number one spot.

So there. Brokeback Mountain, in its entirety, exquisite-ness, and beauty. I congratulate Ang Lee for directing such a great movie, and everyone involved in its award-winning product. I can't wait for the Oscar's.

Twice in a day, you got out of my grasp. I Wish I Knew How To Quit You.

x(

2006-02-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

Kumulo dugo ko... Onti pa...

Momentary lapse of judgment.

Randomness

2006-02-08T18:29:00.000+08:00

I have a question for you guys. What if a boy/girl that you like said that he/she will leave his/her current girl/boyfriend so that he/she could be with you. What will you do?

Well, I think I got the best answer from a friend (let's not name this person, because I don't know if it's okay with this person, but let's call this person X for the purpose of easier reference, and let's say X is a girl). X said that she won't accept the offer, even if she did like the guy or not. Why? Because what makes her so sure that the guy won't do the same with her, leave her for another girl? Did you get the point?

Come to think of it, X is right. I never really looked at it from that perspective. It's sad, but it's true.

On another news...

I don't know, but time seems to be running so fast. The weeks I've spent in school seemed like a second. Is it just me? I'm definitely not enjoying school (in contrast to the saying that time flies faster when you're having fun). So what's making it run fast, as if something's chasing it?

Nothing exciting has happened in my life since I don't know when. I'm getting monotonous. Somebody, save me.

Saturday Day and Night Out

2006-02-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

I was out for almost 18 hours of the 24 hours of Saturday.

I woke up at 545AM (or better yet, my father woke me up) yesterday, in preparation for the Smart IT Summit which starts at 9AM. I was soooo sleep deprived from the days before, but thank God that he was able to wake me up. Showered, dressed, ate, then off to school, where I was supposed to meet the others.

I got there at 730 I think. Then waited for Joyce, Kaine and Don. Joyce arrived first, then Kaine. I asked them to bring me a nailcutter, because my nails were so long and I forgot to cut them. Good thing they both brought one, which makes two. Hehehe. We waited till 8, but Don wasn't still there, so Joyce called him up. And gawd, Don was still at home! The nerve. So we decided to leave.

We rode the taxi to SM Megamall where the summit was going to be held. We got there at 8 something, and then waited for Kester, Karen, and Don. Blah blah blah... Hehehehe. The summit started, we didn't win any raffle prizes, we got free henna tattoos, we waited till 5PM for our job interviews doing nothing but TextTwist.

Oh yeah, Kareeza was there too! Small world. So from after eating lunch to 5PM, we just walked around Megamall. The job interview was okay, it was pretty much like chatting with a guy working in Smart. It was probably the best job interview I ever participated in. I was able to answer all of his questions almost confidently, but of course sometimes I still groped for words and stuttered. And then... Oh gawd. I don't even want to remember it.

So after the job interview, we waited for JV. He got there at around... 6 or something. Then we ate at El Pollo Loco. The food was good there. I think the last time I ate there was when I was 7 or 8 or 6. Haha. Then we watched Zathura.

*POSSIBLE SPOILERS UP AHEAD. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK*

And good Lord, I was soooo disappointed. Sorry Frytz, but I think you saying that Zathura is way better than Jumanji urged me to expect a lot from the movie. But crap, it was so damn predictable. The moment the astronaut said, "Dude, you're meat," I already knew that it was Walter all grown up. And then he showed the same card that said "You're promoted to Fleet Commander" or something that the young Walter had, and it was such a giveaway. And he kept on saying Dude. Damn.

There was one funny part though. When Walter was ejected into space, the girl behind us was totally surprised! She was like, "Aaahh!" Hahahaha! JV and I were trying so hard not to laugh out loud.

Okay, the visual effects were great. But the plot, is the total opposite. I've seen only three movies since January 1, and they all sucked.

After that, we went back to Taft, and stayed for a while at Starbucks. Then went home.

I slept at 1AM, and woke up at 1130 or something. Long sleep, but not enough to pay the sleep debts I incurred days ago. So there, nothing much else to say.

Animo La Salle!

2006-01-29T00:52:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! This year's University Week celebration totally rocked!!

Hahaha! I'm so happy, I'm just gonna tell you why!! I won a webcam!!! Woohoooo!!! And it's so freakin' great! Hehehe! Just installed it. A hundred times better than our previous webcam! Well, our previous one totally sucked anyway. Harhar!

Fine fine fine, aside from the webcam, the celebration, especially the culminating night, was really a blast! Rivermaya and Kjwan were there. They totally rocked the house. That's the Central Plaza to you and me Lasallians. Oh my gawd, I can't even explain the hype that I'm feeling now. Hahaha, expect a lot of pictures from me from now on. Or maybe after this face of mine has cleared up. This hectic week caused a massive breakout of pimples in my face. Rawr.

I am definitely feeling lucky this new year, Chinese New Year to be exact. Oh yeah, did you see the girl who won the million prize in Game Ka Na Ba? She's definitely luck.

Anyway, can't stay and chat for long. I'm gonna sleep early, so the massive breakout would subside, hopefully. Kung Hei Fat Choi! (Did I get it right?)

Rawr

2006-01-26T01:20:00.000+08:00

I can't login in Yahoo Messenger. Weird. I can't even connect to the Yahoo! Website, and I can't download my files in GetRight. But I'm connected to the Internet. Of course. Hmmm...

Smile, My Only Star

2006-01-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

Close To You

There's nothing I won't try
Just to make you mine
To get a little closer
Would be so divine

And everytime I see you
You make me come undone
I always watch you near me
In you I found the one

Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
Smile my only star
Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
Smile my only star

With you by my side
Girl it feels so right
And now that I'm close to you
I could stay all night
No matter where I go
No matter what I do
In the end your smile
Brings me back to you

Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
Smile my only star
Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
Smile my only star

You shine so true
I can't believe you're mine
And everything may change
But to me you'll always shine

Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
Smile my only star

I Hate

2006-01-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

Friendster!! Their search engine, aside from the user search, is so stupid. It's not even arranged alphabetically!! Heck!

I've been looking for someone, sometwo actually, and haven't found any of them. My stalking powers are rusty. Well, I only know their first names, so it's a lot harder. And what college they are in. But still... Like what I told JV, either my stalking powers are rusty, or they're losers and don't have a Friendster account. I think they're losers. Hehehe.

Oh well, back to the drawing board...

Oh yeah, JV, Svet and I watched Underworld Evolution earlier. I didn't like it much. Probably because I wasn't able to watch the first movie. Or not. Hehehe. The plot was so complicated. The sequel was obviously made for people who were able to watch the first. What I mean is, Evolution was a "strict-sequel." Errr... you get my point. You wouldn't understand the movie, unless you were able to watch the first one. There. And the fight scenes... Wait, what fight scenes? They're not as amazing and incredible as... Matrix, or... Charlie's Angels, or... You get the picture.

And I actually missed Only You for it. Tsk tsk. Bad decision. Oh well. It's been ages since my last movie, and Jamie's already ahead by... 5 movies? Rawr.

Crap

2006-01-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

I fell asleep earlier, at 8PM, and woke up 1030. How am I supposed to sleep now?

Tomorrow's another school day... Another day... And somebody won the PhP150M prize in lotto??? Like what I told Rommel, I think it was just a "plan" of *deleted*. Nobody really won. They just took it. Hehehe.

OMG. There are five good movies this week, and I haven't watched one of them!!! There's Narnia, Little Manhattan, Jarhead, Rumor Has It, and St. Ange. Crapness.

Happy Birthday Dumbly!!

2006-01-21T15:57:00.000+08:00

It's my bloggy's birthday!! I was supposed to give it a new template as my birthday gift, but it's hard to think of a concept you know.

Cheers!

Wanted: House

2006-01-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

I'm putting myself up for adoption. Any takers?

I can wash the dishes, do the laundry, clean the house, cook, and anything you ask me to, in payment for a house to live in. Anything to get me out of this stupid house with stupid people. I'm serious. Dead Serious.

I swear to God, the moment I get my first salary, I'll get an apartment.

A Sad Story

2006-01-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

This is a compilation of text quotes. I've thought of this ages ago, and I was about to blog about my most unforgettable experience in DLSU (even worse than the abyssmal defeat of Tapat during the Frosh Elections 2003), but then I decided to spend precious time on this one. I tried translating the Filipino quotes to English, but it was futile. So here goes. A Sad Story.

You love someone not because you want them to love you too. But rather, you love them simply because you found no reason not to.

Naka ilang iyak na ba tayo sa taong mahal natin? Siguro di na natin mabilang. Pero sa bawat tulo ng luha, natututo ba tayo? Bobo kasi tayo pag nagmamahal. Minamahal natin, yung pang taong di tayo kaya mahalin.

It's so hard pretending to be friends with someone special, when everytime you look at that person, it just hurts even more. Knowing all that you see is ultimately you want, but can't have.

Lagi mo sinasabi na sana magparamdam na yung taong magmamahal sayo. Sabi ko nasa tabi tabi lang yun. Tapos ngayon sasabihin mo na nakakapagod nang maghintay?? Tang ina, mas nakakapagod kaya magparamdam...

Mahirap ma-inlove kapag friends kayo. Why? Paano mo sasabihin sa kanya na, "Hay! In love na ako!" Syempre itatanong niya, "Kanino?" Masasabi mo bang, "Sayo! Tulungan mo naman ako. Diba friends tayo?"

I heard someone say that if wishes don't come true, the sky would cry. One night, I thought of wishing upon them, and I wished that you could be mine. But just when I was about to close the window and sleep, it rained.

If I could hug you, I would. If I could hold you close, I would. If I could love you forever, I would. It's not that I don't have the will... I just don't know if I have the right.

Isang araw, may bumatok sa akin, sabay sabi, "Matauhan ka nga! Di ka niya mamahalin!" Tumawa ako pero tumulo luha ko... Nasabi ko na lang, "Di naman ako umaasa, mahal ko lang talaga siya."

Mahal ko siya kahit mali. Hinintay kahit sobrang tagal. Nagbigay kahit ubos na. Nagparaya kahit sobra na. Lahat ginawa ko. Kulang pa rin ba yun para mahalin ako? O sapat na yung para sumuko na ako?

I've done the bravest thing in my life, letting go of someone I loved so much. But as I've done my bravest thing, I've never felt so weak. All I could do is breakdown, cry, and wish that I never was that brave.

My friends asked me, "Mahal mo pa ba?" Then I replied, "Oo, sobra." Then they asked, "Eh bakit di mo ipaglaban?" I just whispered, "Masaya na siya, guguluhin ko pa ba."

It's true, setting someone free is the hardest thing to do. It's not the tears you cried that makes it so hard, but the small piece of hope left inside your heart that someday, you'll still end up together.

Losing the one you love hurts. Some people say that you'll get over it easily. But it really isn't easy, especially when that person you love, was the only love you ever wanted.

For you, it hurts when the only person you want to hold on to forever is with someone else. All you can do is continue loving them... watch them from a distance, then walk away and say, "There goes my life..."

The quotes in bold are my favorites. Sad, huh? That pretty much sums up mine.

Only You

2006-01-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

$*#(@*%&^!!!! I went home early to watch Only You, and I missed the part I was so much waiting for!!!! $*#(@*%^!*#(@*%^!!!!

I changed the channel to Studio 23 since it's been forever since I last watched Charmed. Then I changed it back to channel 2, but it's still commercial, so I changed it back to 23. Now, ordinarily, the Jump button would send me back to channel 2, without pressing more than 1 button. But crap, it didn't register!!! I was pressing and pressing Jump, and it was too late. When I manually changed the channel, Jillian was already leaning her head to TJ's shoulder. Crap!! I missed the part where TJ was pulling Jillian's head, which is why I went home early!! Dagnabbit! Now I have half a mind to buy the Only You series in CD.

Okay, you're probably thinking, "Kadiri si Albert, nanonood ng Only You." But whatever you say, I won't be affected. I like Only You. The plot is, well, unique. Of course, it's the usual rich guy-poor girl story. But with many twists involved. And the way TJ's eyes glitter and sparkle when he sees Jillian, you'd really see that he loves her. Awwww. TJ is a great actor, as well as Jillian. Well, she really acted great in that "tuod" scene of hers, in the movie. Hehehe. Really funny. Damn, I missed it.

Been a long while since I last wrote an entry. Well, school's the same, boring. But I'm trying to make the most out of it. Ewww. Whatever possessed me to say that.

Oh yeah, I hate that security guard!! Earlier, when I entered Gokongwei, of course we scan our IDs. Then my ID made that sound that basically means, "Uh oh." It says on the computer that I have to go to the Registrar's office. Good thing that the guard didn't ask me to walk all the way back to the South Gate. He just asked for my EAF, and good thing that it was with me. So I showed it to him, and he let me inside. No, he's not the guard that I hate. Although I can't remember if he was that one or not. Anyway, I decided to go to the Registrar's office later, since I'll be late for my class if I went there right away. So at around 5PM, I went there with Svet.

It turns out, that the Registrar's office was "paging" for me. It was about my work there. Then Mr. Santiago talked to me and asked me to do a research. After that, I talked with Mr. Salitar (Mr. Santiago's secretary or assistant) and told me that he already had the page lifted, so my ID won't make that noise anymore when I scan it. But noooooo. When I went back to Gokongwei, and met JV, we were gonna go and eat, we passed through the Miguel entrance from Gokongwei, and when I scanned my ID, tutututututut!! That's sort of like the sound it makes, which means they haven't really lifted the page! And so I explained to the guard that the Registrar's office was looking for me and I already went there and said that they had the page lifted. I doubt that the guard was even listening to what I said. He seemed like not believing my story. And he was saying something like, "Sa South Gate kayo dumaan." And I was like, "Are you joking me??" I was about to tell him off, but I didn't. I just kept my cool and walked away.

You know what the problem here is? Definitely not me. And even if I hate to admit it, it's not even the guard's fault (but I still hate him). It's the Registrar's fault. I mean, what kind of paging system is that?? They make your ID beep like you're in deep shit, and you have to walk all the way back to South Gate (that is if you're entering through another gate). It's a hassle you know. They (the OUR staff) didn't even think that it would be a problem for students. Don't they know that the guards send the students to the South Gate if your ID beeps like that?? I'm really considering talking to them about it.

I'll stop here now. I don't want my blood to boil any further, as it's already hot here. I'm gonna play Scrabble with my fam now. Ciao!

New Year, Oh New Year

2006-01-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

Well, this year's New Year celebration, was my least favorite.

Hours before the clock hit 12 midnight last night, I was feeling like "this is the most abyssmal new year's celebration I've ever celebrated in my whole nineteen years, six months and four days of existence in this world." But everything came through in the last hour, but wasn't enough to cover the pathetic feeling I felt hours before that. It was okay anyway.

Good thing was, I got a caller, two actually, but I didn't know at first. It must have been months since I last used the telephone, so I was asking myself "who could possibly call me at this time of the year," when my sister told me that the call was for me. And boy, was I surprised. It was my long time phone-buddy, Erica! Back in highschool, we used to call each other almost everyday. Non-stop gossiping. Hahaha! Well, at least that was in third year highschool. A lot, as in a lot, has changed.

Anyway, so there, she called me, and then greeted each other Happy New Year. And then she told me that somebody was listening, which confused me, because I was using the cordless phone, and our other phone (the cord-full one) wasn't being used, as I was sitting beside it. It turns out, Joakim was there! Not in Erica's house (which is sad, hehehe), but on another line. He three-way-ed us. So we ended up chatting and listening and joking around. It was fun actually. Almost like our yesteryears. Haha. Good thing they called too. I was almost ready for burial, as I was rotting like hell.

Oh no, they're gonna kill me for what I'm going to type next. Talking to them was fun and all, but at the same time, (here goes) kinda-- awkward. Haha. It's hard to explain, especially when they HAVEN'T TOLD ANYBODY YET (dagger looks at the two of them). C'mon guys. It's new year. (Yes, I'm talking to the both of you) Anyway, yeah, there were awkward moments (only for me), listening to them talk. Hahaha! Awkward in a good way, so don't get me wrong. Of course, I am soooo happy for them. They, are my masterpiece in my bridging career. The cherry at the top of the cake. So you better not let the cake rot, OR ELSE!

Anyway, I'm not gonna tell you guys why hours before that I was feeling crappy, because it's new year, and I don't wanna spend the rest of the year ranting about this and about that. My grandma just came home from the US of A, so were all heading to our relative's house where she was staying (to get all our loots, hehehe) later.

Oh yeah, my sister and I were watching the news last night, and they featured Feng Sui (is it Sui or Shui, I don't know and I don't care) and how to become rich and 2006 predictions. I was kinda irritated with the predictions part. They were saying that there will be natural disasters this year and all. Like DUH! As if that doesn't happen. I mean, it wouldn't take a Feng Sui expert to tell that. In what year did no natural calamities happen anyway. Look, no offense to people who believe in that and practice that and all, but c'mon. Who were they kidding?

And they also "predicted" that our country will suffer more economic and political problems. Again, DUH! When didn't that happen? Okay, I may be sounding pessimistic, or maybe I'm sounding wise. You choose.

Enough of that. I'm reposting my new year's resos so I can remember them.

1. Less softdrinks, or better yet, no softdrinks.
2. Less spicy food.
3. Less junk food, or completely none. For good ol' health.
4. Exercise more.
5. Eat more fruits.
6. Eat more veggies.
7. Never skip meals, especially breakfast. For dear ol' stomach.
8. STUDY. Oh my God, this is gonna need some serious work.
9. Spend less on not-so-important things (I'll do this when I'm done with the Starbucks card).
10. Watch at least one movie every week (If and only if, one, I have money, and two, there's a very good flick, or maybe not even a good one, but at least appealing)
11. Be honest. Note: Being honest is not the same as telling stuffs.
12. Do charity work. Looking forward to FTK.
13. Spend more time alone. For my sanity's sake.

Hmmm... I think I need to add more. I'll think for some.

Oh no. I just thought of it now, I wasn't able to do number 7 today. Too bad. I'll make it up tomorrow.

Around 1AM, my sister and I watched How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days. It was okay. Haha. I'm not a big fan of Kate Hudson, nor of Matthew McConaughey (I checked the spelling of that, so no NSWTS here, hehehe). It was sooo predictable, that I could be a Feng Sui expert. Hahaha!

Oh yeah, our brother who was in Saudi called us. The usual, greetings and chatting. It's been almost a year since he left. And for three (or four) straight years now, we haven't celebrated Christmas that we are complete. In 2007 (because my brother's contract in Saudi is two years, hence he won't be with us in Christmas 2006), hopefully we will be complete again.

A lot of things, good and bad, happened in twenty-oh-five. And that's an understatement. I met new friends, made new enemies (did I?), I can't even think of what to put next because they're so many.

Hoping that 2006 will be better, for me, and for all of us. Happy New Year everyone!

New Year

2005-12-31T13:11:00.000+08:00

Yep, a few (if you can call 10 few) hours left, and it's a new year! And here I am, in front of the computer again. Hahaha. Looks like that part of me will never change.

I think I've posted my New Year's resolutions in the previous previous post. Hope I can do them.

I've spent my money already x| And that's why I'm stuck at home. I'm not really in the mood for blogging. Just wanted to greet you guys. Have a merry merry new year! May we all have a great year ahead of us. Cheers!

Merry Christmas!!!

2005-12-25T05:15:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!!

May you enjoy this holiday with your loved ones.

God bless you and your family!

'Tis the season to be jolly, la la la la la, la la la la!!

[Drama mode, ON!]

Sana ngayong pasko, maalala mo pa rin ako...

At kahit wala ka na, nangangarap at umaasa pa rin ako...

In Pain

2005-12-22T20:19:00.000+08:00

My ulcer's worse than I thought. It's killing me now. Since yesterday. My mom's gonna kill me, if ulcer doesn't kill me first. Crap. I can feel the gastric juices slowly eating my insides. Ugh.

Vacay's still boring. Hoping for something exciting and more blog-worthy to happen. I've half a mind to sleep now.

EDIT:

This post was too short, and then I thought of something. On the way home from school, I was thinking of my resolutions for next year. Here are some of what I thought of:

1. Less softdrinks, or better yet, no softdrinks. Ulcer's still killing me.
2. Less spicy food, same reason as 1.
3. Less junk food, or completely none. For good ol' health.
4. Exercise more.
5. Eat more fruits.
6. Eat more veggies.
7. Never skip meals, especially breakfast. For dear ol' stomach.
8. STUDY. Oh my God, this is gonna need some serious work.
9. Spend less on not-so-important things (I'll do this when I'm done with the Starbucks card).
10. Watch at least one movie every week (If and only if, one, I have money, and two, there's a very good flick, or maybe not even a good one, but at least appealing)
11. Be honest. Note: Being honest is not the same as telling stuffs.
12. Do charity work. Looking forward to FTK.
13. Spend more time alone. For my sanity's sake.

Now that I'm at it, let's see my wishlist for Christmas:

1. The new dark blue gray Chuck Taylor.
2. ~~A bloody red messenger bag to go with my bloody red belt and bloody red Chucks.~~ Not what I had in mind, but I already bought one. Hehehe. The problem is, there's a Blue Magic writing in front. It's not that pathetic, but I'd rather have a plain one. Oh well, I'll think of ways to remove it.
3. A N6260 casing, even if it doesn't exist.
4. A wireless keyboard for my phone.
5. A bluetooth USB.
6. A 512MB (or higher) RSMMC for my phone.
7. A 256MB RAM.
8. A 128MB (or higher) video card.
9. An external CDRW/DVDR. (Eww, I'm being so techy with all the above stuffs)
10. A bloody red sweater, to go with number 2.
11. A new pair of contact lenses.
12. Complete set of One Tree Hill episodes.
13. Complete set of Charmed episodes.
14. Complete set of Smallville episodes.
15. Complete set of X-Men cartoons episodes.
16. Complete set of Pokemon TV series episodes, and movies.
17. Complete set of Sex and the City episodes.

That's not much if you ask me. They're just basic needs. EDIT: Just added numbers 12 to 17, so the list is not so basic anymore. Hehehe.

First Day

2005-12-21T23:01:00.000+08:00

of the Christmas break and I'm dying already.

Last night, my knees were aching so bad, I didn't fall asleep right away, even if I was too sleepy. I ended up eating, then texting people. Good thing JV was up. Even if he's a super duper slow texter. Haha! Anyway, I fell asleep waiting for his reply.

And when I woke up, my stomach was aching. I didn't know if it was hungry or needed to go to Yuch. But I think it's an ulcer attack. Heck, it's still aching now, even after eating and drinking medicines. I was planning on sleeping early, in hopes of fixing this wretched bio clock.

Now how on earth am I going to finish that Starbs card. Still have ten stickers to go. Anybody? Hehehe. People, well, Starbs people (Joyce and JV) are in their provinces now. I guess I could con my sister into treating me. Haha!

Boooorrriiiinnngggggg... Even blogging seems boring... Sorry bloggy...

Speaking of my bloggy, one month to go, and it's his anniversary!! Yay!! I'm gonna celebrate it, with my new Starbs planner! Haha!

Ho God

2005-12-20T04:42:00.000+08:00

442 in the morning and I'm typing away!

Crap, my sleeping habit's definitely gone haywire. Lately, I've been sleeping so early (like 7 or 8 or 9 or 10 in the evening, mind you, that's early), and I wake up so early too! (like 12 or 1 or 2 in the morning!) And then I won't be able to sleep until 9 or 10 or 11 in the morning! Crap. And it's course card distribution day today. *sigh*

This day marks the official end of the term. Another boring vacation, if you can call an almost-less-than-two-weeks "vacation" a vacation. Errr... Never mind. I miss the times during high school when Christmas (and summer) vacation meant going to my Tito's house in Pangasinan, right in front of a beach, with my family and relatives. Heck, I miss the days when we went to the beach. I can't remember the last time I went to one. That must mean something.

Nothing, just wanted to rant.

You Had Me At Hello

2005-12-19T02:03:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!! My first Job Level 50 character in Ragnarok! And my first crusader! Woohoo!!

Hehehe, sorry for that. Well, I can officially say that the term is over, even if our course cards haven't been given yet. I've been doing nothing but sit in front of the computer since Friday night. Gahd, whatta way to spend the Christmas break.

Speaking of Christmas, I can't believe that I'll feel my most scary experience during this holiday season. I think it was Saturday, I woke up very early, like 7 in the morning. That's early for me, and I slept at something like 4AM. So I woke up, opened the PC, and played, as usual. Then at around 11AM, I felt sleepy, so I went to my sister's room, and slept there.

After ten minutes of lying down, I thought I was asleep, but I wasn't. I felt like I was sleeping, but then I felt like I was awake too. And when I tried to get up, I couldn't. It was like my body weighed a thousand tons. And then, I remembered Frytz' and Ross' experience, just like this. And hell, did I ever feel scared! Before Frytz told me his and Ross' experiences, I've already felt this, feeling like I was awake but I was really sleeping, not being able to move my body. I usually jerk my body even if it seemed impossible, and it always works. I wake up after that.

But after Frytz' creepy stories (just ask him about it if you want), I felt, "What the hell, what's happening to me??" I almost lost my cool. I tried to open my mouth and shout, but I couldn't. I opened my eyes (or at least I remembered opening my eyes) and saw the wall of the room. I immediately closed it, because I might see something (or someone) else. And then I remembered to pray. Okay, you're probably saying something like, "Whatever, Treb." But really, I prayed. I just finished saying one word, "Lord," and then I felt electricity going through my whole body, like my whole body's feeling cramps. And the more I got scared. I tried to continue my own prayer (remembering that at scary and creepy times like this, you should pray your own personal prayer), and luckily I was able to. My prayer still started with "Lord," but I forgot what I said next. I think it was something like "You are the most powerful of all." Again, after I said the word "Lord," electricity coursed through my body again. And then I woke up.

Boy, did I ever felt scared.

Anyway, I've watched two movies since I last blogged. One, In Her Shoes, and the other is King Kong.

One word describes In Her Shoes. Draggy. The plot is oh-so plain. Starring Cameron Diaz and Toni Collette (NSWTS*), it's about two sisters who are totally different. Toni's the goody-two-shoes sister, while Cameron's the bitchy one. Well, I really didn't want to watch this one, I wanted to watch The Fog. But JV made me and Karen watch this. Okay, so The Fog isn't a good movie either (according to friends), but I still didn't want to see In Her Shoes. Anyway, I expected this movie to be a semi-comedic one, as Cameron's there. But nooo. I can count in one hand the scenes where we laughed. Okay, so I cried in the last part. Well, that's because I really have shallow tears (errr, that's a direct translation, I didn't know the English equivalent). Anyway, it's a so-so movie. Go watch it if you have no other choice to watch.

Now, King Kong. You wouldn't believe this, but I was laughing three-fourths of the time we were watching the movie. And it's three hours long. Ahahaha, I can still remember it. Svet and I were making fun of the movie (not because it's ugly or pathetic or anything, we just made fun of it) which caused us to laugh almost every ten minutes. JV was hissing us, which is very un-JV. He should've been laughing with us, but noooo, it's his debut movie, so I understand. Good thing the others weren't hissing us, or I guess they were, but we didn't hear them, as we were so engrossed in laughing our heads off. King Kong's very likeable, if you're watching it with Svet and Me. Hahaha! Seriously, the movie's good. Fantastic visual effects. Exaggerated production (in a good way). Naomi Watts is gooood. Not to mention very beautiful. I didn't like Jack Black much. And oh, Adrien Brody's (NSWTS*) nose is to die for. As in, I'd die if I had his nose! Hahahaha! My gawd, the holes of his nose is bigger than King Kong's! Hahahaha!! Not that I don't like Adrien, but come on. With a nose like that?? He should've had it remade or something. Anyway, I'd say it's a must-watch movie, if you can hold your pee for three hours.

That makes 30 movies this year. I still have a lot of catching up to do with Jamie's 36 movies this year (and counting, I think). Hope she won't watch the MMFF movies. Hehehe.

Hmmm, that's about it... 6 days to go!

You must be wondering what's the title about. I got it from Jerry Mguire (NSWTS*). Watched it a couple of nights ago. Good movie. Not a very funny one, but good anyway. Also watched Ghost just last night I think. Now Ghost, is a great movie, bearing in mind that it's a 1990-ish movie. The special effects weren't that great, but I told you, it was done a long time ago. Anyway, the plot is what makes it a very great movie. Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze (NSWTS*) did a great job on playing their roles. And Whoopi Goldberg is a riot. She is sooo good at making people laugh. Definitely a classic, one that you must watch or you're gonna be branded a loser. Hehehe. And a few hours ago, my sister and I watched Garfield, and Garfield said that line too, "You had me at hello," so there.

You had me at hello.

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*NSWTS - not sure with the spelling. I'm too lazy to look for their correct spellings, so bear with me.

Pre-Christmas Post

2005-12-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

Another term ended (almost)! But before I rant about this term's hurray's and boo's..

I had a freakin dream! Dammit, I had four 0.0's this term! I mean, what the fcuk?? Talk about nightmare. No, don't get me wrong. I'm not a grade-conscious person, but who would want that? I was just thinking of my mom, my scholarship and all..

Anyway, speaking of 0.0's, I, unfortunately, got one. He-who-must-not-be-named-one failed me. You know, the subject that I was planning to drop ages ago. So there, I got what I dreaded months ago. I knew this would happen if I didn't take precautionary measures. And I didn't. So there. I'm actually over with it now. I already told my mom the moment I was sure that I am really failed in it so I wouldn't have to carry the burden till the 20th, where we will receive our other course cards. But even if I am over with it, I'm still not happy about it. Being over is different from being happy. Who's happy with a 0.0 right? So my problem now is I have to talk to SFA and DOST for my scholarships. Hope they won't pull the plug on me.

DELETED!! That's what you get when you pester me.

Still have some school stuffs to do. A project and a summary paper for RELSFOR, a finals exam in GRAPHIX, and another in JPRIZAL. A few thesis stuff as well.

I actually wanted to blog weeks ago, but the past few weeks have been one hell of a roller coaster ride.

Last, last week, we had our first and last thesis defense. We weren't able to do our defense on the first opportunity because we passed our papers 5 or 10 minutes after the deadline, and they're really strict with deadlines, so we missed our first chance. On our defense day, we were sooo nervous, because if we fail in the defense, we fail our THES-1. One panelist (he-who-must-not-be-named-two) almost literally and figuratively cooked us. I was almost expecting a redefense verdict, even if there wasn't any redefense anymore. But luckily, we passed! Woohoo! And to think, our thesis adviser, Sir Bart, wasn't even there to back us up. Maybe it was my lucky-bloody-red long sleeves, the same one I wore when we did our defense last term. Hehehe.

At last, I got to watch my most awaited movie of the year (or at least after I saw it's trailer), Just Like Heaven. And was I soooo relieved that I didn't get disappointed.

Just Like Heaven, starring Reese Witherspoon and Mark Ruffalo, is one hell of a chick-flick. It's now my most favorite movie of all time, overthrowing A Walk To Remember who stayed in the number one spot since it was released. There are a lot of things that I love about this movie, and let me enumerate.

First, the actors. Reese and Mark (whoa, first name basis) are very good actors. They're very likeable, and they're both good-looking. They really portrayed their roles well, very convincing, very real, that it's almost surreal. I really felt the emotions that they were portraying. Oh, I can still remember it like it was yesterday.

Second, the plot. Well, to be honest, the first parts of the movie were very predictable (I'm trying to be discreet here so that I won't spoil the movie for you, because I'm really recommending this movie to you guys.), I won't mention the parts. But the twist at the end. Oh, the pain, the pain! I cried like there was no tomorrow! I was trying so hard to stop my tears from falling, seeing that JV was beside me (hehehe), but I miserably failed! My mouth was trembling from trying sooo hard to stop the tears. But I gave in. I wanted to wail and moan and cry my heart out, and I almost did. But there were other people. Hehehe. From that particular event in the movie, to the end, I was crying. I didn't cry that hard in AWTR and If Only, combined! Well, I am sensitive so not all of you will probably feel the same way after watching the movie. They, JV, Kaine, and Don, deny that they cried. Hehehe.

Third, the supporting actors. Well, only one, which is Jon Heder. I don't know the guy actually, and I didn't like him in the trailers, because he seemed like an antagonist. But he turned out to be very likeable as well, and funny. He's this psychic who can feel spirits, so I like him. Hehehe. We're in league. (I'm 99.9% parched here, I could really use a cow-lah!)

So there. Just Like Heaven. I didn't know that it was based on a novel by Marc Levy (I think the title's If Only It Were True, or something, which I'm planning to buy) till I saw it in the movie. I'm planning to buy an original copy of the movie once it comes out. We watched it again, but I didn't cry as hard as before.

Ahhhh, shet. I feel like crying just by thinking of the movie...

Hmmm... What else, what else...

Oh yeah, Nene won in Pinoy Big Brother. I guess she deserved it, seeing that she's really poor, and really a Filipino at heart. But I still love Cass more. Hehehe. She's so beautiful and sexy and hot. Hahaha!

So there. Can't think of anything to say anymore... Maybe later, something will pop out. Till next time! Cheerio!

14 days before Christmas! Ignore the countdown in the right. I didn't get to finish the other numbers. Hehehe.

Blind

2005-11-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this war
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

...

2005-11-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

Para sa mga nang-boycot...

Para sa mga hindi tumulong na dapat tumulong...

Para sa mga "maaagang" nagsubmit ng requirements...

Para sa mga "maraming" ginawa...

Salamat. Astig kayo.

The Exorcism of Pride

2005-11-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

DANGER: Possible spoilers up ahead. Continue at your own risk.

Well, our thesis defense practice got postponed, so Mad, Don and I went to Rob instead to watch a movie, two movies in fact.

The first one we watched was The Exorcism of Emily Rose. Based on a true story, the plot revolves around the trial of a priest, who was accused of negligent homicide, when the girl she was caring for died. The girl was in fact possessed by demons, at least that's what the defendant (?) claims. The opponent (not the politically-correct term for it, but I forgot how it's called) thinks otherwise. Because Fr. Moore suggested that the girl stop taking her prescriptions, he caused her death. Yeah, I'm bad at remembering things.

Anyhoot, Emily, or rather the actress who played Emily's part, was good. She's an effective actress, making you really think that she was possessed, with all that stiff body, stiff fingers look. Really creepy. But wasn't really that scary if you ask me. I was more terrified with The Eye. There are parts that are shocking and scary, but that's it. It won't leave a lasting effect. At least for me it didn't.

There was a part in the movie that was interesting though. There was one scientist who was called to the witness stand to give a testimonial or whatever it's called. She specialized in giving scientific explanations for possessions. Errr, possessions as in possessed by the devil. She said something about the drugs that Emily took caused her to be trapped in the possessed state. Exorcism was supposed to cut her off from the possessed state, but the drugs prevented her from responding, and therefore the exorcism was a failure. She also said something about a hypersensitive person. A hypersensitive person is someone who is-- not normal. He has connections with the-- errr I forgot how the scientist called it, but something close to the supernatural world.

Anyhoot, she also said that a hypersensitive person can see the future, and other non-normal stuffs, that I forgot. Hehehe. Anyway, I remembered the seeing the future part, because I feel that I can. Well, not on purpose like Phoebe on Charmed. Most of my dreams come true, which is scary actually. Sometimes they happen a year after, and I get this feeling of deja vu, like almost every other day. So, I'm now an OC-HS person. Hehehe.

On a technical analysis, the special effects were okay. The sounds were good. The production, so-so. The cinematography, could have been better. Conclusion, I wouldn't recommend this movie to you guys, even just to scare you. Not that scary, really. Or maybe I'm really not that scaredy-cat type of person.

Next stop, Prime. Prime's about a 37-year old divorcee, who meets a 23-year old mama's boy. Uma Thurman (Kill Bill series), the 37, feels that it's wrong to fall in love with Greenberg, the 23, so she consults with her therapist. Turns out that her therapist is 23's mom.

A really witty movie, actually. Had me laughing for some time. The plot is really witty. (BIG SPOILER UP AHEAD!) Anyway, the moral of the story is, age doesn't matter, however, not every love story ends happily. And that's what made the movie effective. It's so real. Not one of those absurd chick flicks.

I loved it. This movie, I'll recommend, especially to those who loves witty chick flicks like me. Movies like these aren't criticized technically, they are more plot-wise analyzed. The ending's really sad, but a good ending at that.

I'm still waiting for Just Like Heaven. I've seen this movie ages ago. I hope it will be released this coming Wednesday. You know what makes Just Like Heaven intriguing? Well, in case you didn't know the plot of it, it's about a doctor (Reese Witherspoon, Legally Blond 1 & 2) who dies, and Mark Ruffalo (13 Going on 30) renting the place Witherspoon used to own. Reese doesn't know that she's dead. The intriguing part is, the ending. I'm really wondering how the story will end. And it better be good. I don't wanna get disappointed. Heck, I waited for it forever.

Other worthwhile movies, Chronicles of Narnia and Zathura. Well, Zathura's not a priority, unlike Narnia, but if I have the time and money, I'll probably watch it.

I've watched 27 unique (watched Goblet three times) movies this year so far. Can't wait for JLH.

28 days before Christmas!!

DigiWeek Night

2005-11-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

At last, our college's celebration of it's 24th anniversary, otherwise known as the Digital Week, ended yesterday. No more running to LS building back to Gokongwei twenty times.

Our Night was held at the 6th floor of the Sports Complex building. It's actually a parking lot, but a very spacious one. It's actually a-- decent place to hold a concert. Our guest bands were Imago, Menaya, and SpongeCola. But seriously, I like Batopik better than these three bands, combined. I'm sure that they'll be famous someday, so watch out for it.

Well, the organizing problems are over now. Next problem, thesis defense. We will be having our thesis defense on Tuesday, so somebody please wake me up at 6AM. This is our first and last chance.

And now, I present to you...

Nais
Artist: BaToPiK
Words & Music by Frytz Razal

i.
umaga na naman pangsampung gabing gan'to
ang isip tumatakbo sa walang hanggang daan
patungo sa kawalan
di na naman dinalaw ng antok
gan'to na lang parati
titingin sa'king tabi iisiping nandiyan ka
ngunit wala, ngunit wala ka

ref.
sawa nang magbilang ng araw
ayoko nang maghintay

chorus.
gusto kong marinig ang tinig mo
gusto kong madama na ako'y mahal mo
tulad ng paghintay ng langit sa liwanag na pinagkait

gustong malaman ---

ii.
bakit may isang daang rason kung bakit hinahanap ka
at pag ika'y kaharap natatandaan ko lang ay isa

ref.
sawa nang magbilang ng araw
ayoko nang maghintay

chorus.
gusto kong marinig ang tinig mo
gusto kong madama na ako'y mahal mo
tulad ng paghintay ng langit sa liwanag na pinagkait

bridge
bakit hintay nang hintay
ayoko nang ----- maghintay

tulad ng paghintay sa paglaho ng lungkot at sakit
tulad ng paghintay sa mga matang pumikit

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29 days before Christmas!!

Batopik, Cueshe, and Everything in Between

2005-11-24T02:28:00.000+08:00

Today, rather yesterday, was very tiring.

Got to school at 12PM. Helped the Digital Week CoreComm for the UBreak Activity. Our invited band was Cueshe. They totally rock. Hehehe. MET them once, in QCSHS. Take note, MET, and not saw. Hehehe. I wasn't able to take a picture WITH them though, in QCSHS and yesterday. But I was able to take lots of pictures from them, mostly because of Karen's request. Hehehe. Anyway, they're really good. And they're kind. Kinda down to earth. At least that's what I think they are.

Batopik played after them. Haha, I'm bias. Batopik totally rocks. Yeaahhh!! I really love their original compositions, especially Cram. Too bad they didn't play it. Well, they're still great. More on Batopik later.

After the UBreak activity, we had to prepare for Pasicatchan. Damn, Karen and I had to walk from Gox to Southgate, not only once, not even twice, but God-knows-how-much. We went to William Shaw Little Theatre, counted the broken chairs, went back to IMS, blah blah blah. Pasicatchan started at probably 630ish. We (Catch2T7 BA) were constantly walking at the sides of the theatre, going out, going in, checking stuffs, everything. Walked back to South Gate to check on Marlon and Shanee. Turns out that they're already inside (long story). So Jamie and I went back to WSLT. A lot of walking has been done by yours truly. The last walking, before IT happened, Don and I went to the Nook to get his stuffs. And when we were walking back to WSLT, IT happened.

The muscles at the lower portion of my right knee, totally ached. A very excruciating and unbearable pain. Somebody crucio-ed me (as if I've felt a crucio before). I swear, I could have died right there of pain. I almost cried. I didn't know why I didn't. The major pain eventually passed, but it was still painful. I couldn't put pressure on my right foot. Don went ahead to look for JV, but he wasn't outside, so he helped me walk back to WSLT. Got inside, and sat. I felt sooooo weak. And I hate it. When I walked in front to see the-- I forgot if it was the 2T6 band or other, I had to hold on to JV's shoulder just so I could steady myself.

Anyway, the event finished (more on the results later), Don, JV and I were about to go to Gox to see if Karen was there, when we met her halfway, in front of Miguel building, and then she told us to go back to WSLT to get the extra food. While we were walking, IT happened again.

This time, the muscles in my lower knee, left knee, ached so bad! Just like the first one. And at that time, my right leg still hurts. I was almost off-balanced. I almost cried. Somebody was crucio-ing me again. I really almost fell. Good thing JV was there. He helped me walk back to a seat. Gawd, it really was painful.

At least I was still able to make it home. Got home at past 1.

And I'm really disappointed with the results. Batopik finished as first runner up :( I wanted them to win soo bad. Of course, I wanted our (2T7) singers and dancers to win as well. Our dancers finished first runner up too. Well, even if Batopik didn't win the big win, they're still number one for me. Naks! Hahaha! You guys are the greatest. Looking forward to your next gigs.

So here I am, sitting in front of the PC. Didn't notice that it's already 349. Humiga na ako kanina, actually, I really felt tired and drained, but for some unknown reason, I wasn't sleepy. So I stood up and opened the PC, and decided to blog.

My muscles are still aching. I don't think I can make it to school later. Oh well.

31 days before Christmas!!

Avada Kedavra

2005-11-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

Somebody, please.

After semi-updating my blog, blog-hopping and posting my new URL to friends, I had the urge to blog. Somebody avada kedavra-ed my blog.

Anyway, the HP craze is still with me, after two hectic days in school. Like I mentioned before, I have watched the movie three times. The first one, was in Gateway. How can I forget, I was superbly annoyed and angry and-- wait, I don't wanna remember that thing. Anyway, I wasn't able to watch the first 50 minutes of the film. Freakin 50 minutes. Errr-- Yeah, I'll try to forget that. Anyway, I watched it with high school friends, namely, Kareeza, Karen (Mortell), Kester, Yana, Sedricke, Dan, Jaze, and Krissa. Some of these guys, I haven't seen since God-knows-when. Yeah, that long.

As much as I hate to admit it, (not really), I cried. Haha! Sorry Jamie, Rommel, and others interested in seeing me cry. You didn't see me. Hehe. Anyway, yeah, I cried, when Cedric died, when the dead spirits started appearing (especially Harry's parents and Cedric), when Harry brought Cedric back to Hogwarts (via portkey), and when Dumblydorr gave a speech about Cedric. Awwww. And yeah, I cried too when I read the book. Sheesh. What a cry baby.

We weren't able to catch up much on each other's lives, as the others went home right after the movie. Some of us ate at Taco Bell first.

If you think I'm a cry baby, wait for the next parts. The second time I watched it, was in Robinson's Manila. I was with S22 peeps, namely Lex, Mico, Jed and Z. And yeah, I cried again. Hahahahaha!!! In the same parts. Shit. I don't think they saw me though. Hehehe. Thank God.

The third time, still in Rob, actually, I didn't pay anymore, coz we were gonna watch in the same cinema. Hehehe. Watched it with JV, Karen (Casimiro), Mad and Don. And no, I didn't cry. Hehehe. Twice was enough. I guess I ran out of tears.

And I didn't even tell how the movie was for me. It was-- spectacular. I really loved it, even better than the first three movies. The Durmstrangs were really menacing, and I really loved it. Especially when they entered Hogwarts with their sticks and all... Hehehehe. There is one thing that bothers me though. Fleur (the Beauxbatons champion) was portrayed-- well, too weak. When I was reading the book, I imagined her to be very strong and a fighter, and of course beautiful. The beautiful part, she was okay. Kinda. Hehehe. But the strong fighter part, definitely not. Or maybe I just forgot the book... I'll read it again.

Anyway, I still love the movie. They did a great job in including all major events in the book, from the Quidditch World Cup to Voldemort's return. Minor details were forgotten of course, but I wasn't ticked off one bit. It's great.

And yeah, I feel like somebody's avada kedavra-ing me. I really feel tired and weak, with all these activities in school. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. Damn, I didn't expect it to be this hard. Or maybe it's just a dementor. Somebody conjure a patronus for me. (Cornyyyy...)

And yeah, "yeah" is the word of the blog for me today. Hehehe. Gotta go now... I wanna rest for tomorrow's dilemmas, problems, and God-knows-what.

32 days before Christmas!!

2005-11-21T02:29:00.000+08:00

Removed the Harry Potter template. I've seen it three times already. Hehehe. Great movie. Definitely the most-awaited movie of the year.

I'll probably create a new template during the Christmas break. 34 days before Christmas!!

Dot Dot Dot

2005-11-05T02:51:00.000+08:00

I have typed three different titles here, and three different "entries" but they weren't able to express how I really feel... I just wanted to post something here... So there... Someday, someday, I can...